"If you don't go crazy, you won't survive." For Cheng Dieyi, only by being indifferent between people and dramas can he finally fulfill himself and live up to the true Yu Ji who "smiles for eternal spring and cries for eternal sorrow".

In addition to his self-fulfilment, there are two other people's perfections in the film. One came from his mother, who opened the door to the theater troupe for him; the other came from a small stone, which opened the road to fame for him. And these two accomplishments, without exception, carry bloody memories.

Because of the six-finger defect, the troupe leader refused to accept the handsome little boy in front of him. A mother who was born in a brothel is willing to give up in order to get her children out of the land of beauty and beauty as soon as possible and find a way for them to make a living. So I hinted to the class teacher that as long as the child was willing to stay in the theater class, he would agree to any conditions. Reluctantly, the class leader resolutely refused and said, "Everyone has his own life. Your child has no chance of entering the opera house because of his six fingers."

In fact, the mother has already made up her mind to let her child enter the theater troupe. When he left the house, he blindfolded himself with a scarf and cut off six of his fingers with a sharp kitchen knife. His mother made a choice for him. After seeing this, many people must think that Jiang Wenli's role is too harsh, but I feel more distressed. If not forced by the times, if not poor and humble, if not wanting to find a way out for their children, who would be willing to endure the separation of flesh and blood? Who would be willing to use a sharp knife? If you complain, you can only blame Heaven for being unkind.

The first bloody experience found a way for this handsome little boy to make a living and became a little bean in the theater troupe. However, because he followed his mother since he was a child, he was too girly no matter how he looked or behaved, and was bullied and ridiculed by others. Fortunately, his senior brother, Xiao Shitou, stood up for him and protected him everywhere.

The performance skills are difficult, and the charming and heroic postures on the stage are not the same as the countless hardships off the stage? Xiaodouzi, who had just entered the pear garden, screamed because he couldn't bear the pain of doing the splits. Xiao Shitou secretly helped him, but was punished by his master, who slapped him on the board and made him stand in the winter night. The sizzling wind and snow froze him into an iceman, and Xiao Shitou paid a heavy "price" for helping Xiaodouzi. On a cold winter night, in order to repay Xiao Shitou's generous help, Xiao Douzi used his body temperature to warm his senior brother who had already frozen into an iceman.

Not only has it become his support in life, but also in his soul. For Xiaodouzi, who is secretly in love, this emotion is something he avoids and is unwilling to admit. Therefore, even though he was beaten, he kept getting the wrong line again and again, "I am a man, not a girl." In this way, he repeatedly emphasized his gender identity and repeatedly avoided the feelings of his senior brother. That terrible feeling.

Day after day, he practiced singing skills by the pond and soft skills in the opera garden. The days passed through sweat and tears, and finally he hoped that the theater manager would come to recruit people for the troupe. Among the many young men, the manager spotted the beauty he needed at a glance, the pretty and pretty Xiaodouzi. Sing a song and listen, "I am a man, not a girl." Xiaodouzi once again sang the wrong song "Sifan", and the manager left angrily.

At this time, his senior brother Xiao Shitou, who had always been protecting him, made a cruel move in front of everyone. He took a metal cigarette rod and stirred it randomly in Xiaodouzi's mouth, causing blood to flow out in an instant. After calming down, "I am a girl, not a man" broke out in her voice, and Xiaodouzi became famous. Likewise, the little stone's success in helping him is still bloody. Because he knew that this was the only opportunity for the manager to stay, and it was also Xiaodouzi's only chance to "become famous". Xiaoshitou didn't want him to miss it. But Little Shitou didn't know that the price of this correct line was Cheng Dieyi's lifelong gender inversion.

You can’t live without being crazy. With the help of her mother, Xiao Douzi has a way to make a living. With the help of her senior brother, Xiao Shitou, Xiao Douzi has become Cheng Dieyi, who attracts the attention of thousands of people. The real Yu Ji outside.

However, sadly, I did not expect that the fate of the characters in the play would be ruthlessly played out on my brother. The same indifference between human and drama, the same habit of cutting sleeves, and the same reason for committing suicide in Duan Hongchen.

After Leslie Cheung, there will never be another Cheng Dieyi! It is truly "a smile that will last forever, a cry that will last forever, this scene cannot belong to you, this appearance cannot belong to you"!