The world says big big, says small very little. It is so big that after walking for so long, I haven't met with the right person yet, and it is so small that if I circle around the person I like, I see the whole world. Even if the distance between me and the world is far, far away, but as long as the last is you, it doesn't matter if it's late.
Early fall in Shanghai seems to have not been out of the summer heat. But the temperature difference between morning and evening is still there, know how much to wear in the morning, and how much at night. When you are alone, you have to learn to take care of yourself, even if you eat alone, shop alone, watch a movie alone, accompany a person, you have to live your life to the end. Otherwise, I'm sorry for those years in front of you to make a promise, pretending to have been strong.
"The train is about to enter the station, please stand outside the yellow line, first down and then up" Erbao carrying a shoulder bag, holding a coffee just bought in the store, head held high, waiting at any time to be able to see the flashing lights in the dark subway channel, in order to just be able to organize the posture, with the big wave of people smoothly squeezed into the subway.
For a young after 90, a person in Shanghai to work, living a nine-to-five life, compared to the class of workers, Erbao blowing air conditioning, just knocking on the computer on the line, the kind of happiness that makes the workers look envious. However, after work, he still has to go back to his rented apartment, can squeeze the subway will never take the bus, can take the bus will never take a taxi, happy, today will pack a barbecued pork rice home as dinner. The first thing you need to do is to get a cup of coffee and a cup of noodles, and you'll be able to get by.
In fact, the second baby can not come to the big city to fight, in the second-tier cities, relying on the relationship between parents to find a decent job, as well. But it's not because of the promise he made two years ago that he was willing to work so hard for her. The second baby's name is also her to obtain, do not want to mention the real name of the reason, because this name is too difficult to hear, difficult to hear and difficult to read - Yang Miao Miao, just know him, she laughed at him a bit, "your parents are how much like water ah, or your family lives in the sea ah, a name in the appearance of so much "water" word, you are not afraid of rain, you drowned". Are you not afraid of being drowned in the rain? He smiled, blushed and lowered his head, the name is obtained by parents, I guess it is the life of the lack of water, so it will take such a name, not good, you do not call my name, you just call me whatever you can. She is a big grin of the northern girl, did not care much, said casually "good ah, then I'll call you two treasure it" he put in the heart, line, then called two treasure, can also be.
It is said that if two people happen to meet is a kind of fate, then after the encounter can be placed in the heart, that is not fate, into the feelings. Maybe it is because of the reason of the character, or maybe it is because she gave him an unprecedented sense of blush, Erbao just fell in love with this girl. At that time of age, are young and frivolous, like and love, silly can not distinguish. Erbao is a liberal arts student, that girl is a science student, Erbao and her the same, is the class of the protected object, a life in the flowers as a captain, a life in the green leaves as a red flower. The difference is that Erbao liked the red flower, but the red flower never knew it, right? Days together for a long time, she and Erbao naturally became best friends, a raw, two familiar, she felt Erbao especially good for her, what all depend on her, said today to read books never go shopping, said today shopping, never stay in the dormitory, but also is the youth of the day, who do not want to play every day crazy ah. The second treasure did not express their own ideas, but he knew that he liked her, he wanted to accompany her every day.
At that time, the school next to open a Chongqing small noodles, you pass me pass, anyway, to this store's evaluation is super high, but not because of the inside of the noodle how delicious, how fragrant, but because a lot of students are accompanied by a store, a stay is half a day, it is more in love with students get along with a good time. She likes to eat noodles, Erbao early to inquire clearly, so every day after school, the first words to see her is "two two small noodles, go or not" Naturally, fragrant small noodles, dressed in a pretty face little girl appeared in the picture of their lives. Every day after school, there is a long queue in front of the store, Erbao is every day in competition with them, it is inevitable that sometimes the store is full of people, but it does not matter, he can always find a way to let her sit at the table to eat, Erbao will move a small stool, next to her, as usual, you can eat noodles. The store is full of people, and they are all schoolmates, this also attracted a lot of gossip from students, at first Erbao a little bit in the heart of the injustice, but after a long time, Erbao heart is happy, can be rumored with her, not also quite good ah.
The two of them Chongqing XiaoMian, a eat is a year, this year they are good serious study, serious in order to senior three and good fight. Drip, QQ appeared on the message sent by her, "Erbao, there are still twenty days to start the school year, a school is the senior three, I just from the teacher there to probe the gossip, this year, the arts and science in a floor, that is, we are closer." ?" Oh, good, we have to be serious, fight hard, and try to get into the same college ah." ?" Che, who wants to go to the same university as you, I want to go to a farther place to go to college, go to the big city, the city should have mountains, have the sea, the best to have a lot of handsome men, hahahaha." ?
The results of the first model came down, I am still ranked in the right place, she this time the test can not, may be the pressure, may also be played out of order, the results of the next night, she asked me to go to the small noodle shop, she told me, this test is not good, do not know why, suddenly feel that I can not do anything. I held her shoulders, told her, it's okay, this is only a model exam, this test is not good, in order to see their own deficiencies in which ah, next time to work harder. After that, he stayed up all night to read all her papers, put her wrong all the knowledge points sorted out, and then study together, seriously these wrong re-teach her. The fact is, there is one more thing that I want to say, but I don't want to say it. I don't want to think that I can't do this, but I'm here for you."
The second and third models are coming, and I think we're doing pretty well, so I'm going to tell you that I'm not going to be able to do this, but I'm going to tell you that I'm not going to be able to do this.
They are not the only ones who have been in the same boat for a long time.
Erbao vaguely remember the day after the end of the college entrance examination, we did not tear the examination paper, did not bang on the table to rejoice, did not embrace each other, did not buy wine to be drunk. Students finished their own exams and went home. He waited for her for a while, wanting to send her to the bus stop, because three years of high school life is over, their two years of companionship is also coming to an end. On the way, both of them did not speak, to the bus stop, the 58 bus has not yet come, she turned her head to look at Erbao, "Thank you, Erbao, high school life is finally over, the day after tomorrow's party we will see you again ah, when the time comes to be sure not to get drunk." ?" Uh-huh, definitely, I have so much to say, haha."
After seeing the bus disappear around the corner, Erbao rode his bike home alone. Summer is coming soon, because the breeze felt the heat, unlike the spring breeze, the kind of cool feeling. Maybe I was still too young to know what the end of the party meant, and I wondered if we would be able to get together again after this graduation. To the day of the party agreement, Erbao went to the hotel very early, he was looking for something in the crowd, in fact, do not need to look for, he saw at once, that day she wore a lime green dress, tied a ponytail, 18 years old, the age of the childishness and innocence, today he saw it all. They sat separately, their respective classmates, their respective teachers, their respective each bar, the principal in front of the read the speech, the students in this moment the nature of all show, do not fear the teacher, the drink drink, the drunk drunk. The face is slightly hot, I guess the two glasses of red wine just a little bit on the brain, but it's okay ah, everyone is very happy, she is also, drink also quite a lot of it. Everyone toasted to each other and made a lot of noise. I carried half a glass of red wine left, walked over to her, squinted my eyes and told her ?" Xu Nian Nian, happy graduation, thank you, have you as a good friend, college we also to a city okay, we continue to be together, I will take you to eat then all the small noodles in that city.". I'll take you to eat all the small noodles in that city." Okay, happy graduation.
The party is over, and everyone is sending gifts, so am I. But I didn't say anything after all. However, I didn't say those three words after all, because I thought, when we got to the university, in the same school, I would tell her these words seriously.
A turnaround, just later we are not together in the university, a in Shanghai, a in Xiamen, she should be very happy, because Xiamen has mountains and the sea, we were filled with the same school, may be God's will to make people right, we are still separated, four years of time, we meet very little, at first will be in the QQ chat all night, and then she wants to go to graduate school, more time to use in the study. The first time I saw this was when I was a student at the University of California at Berkeley.
Erbao had just finished his shower, and his hair was still wet. He took a towel and wiped his hair, pulled open the blackout curtains of the bedroom, the window was clear, this is his second year in Shanghai, after graduation, she successfully went to graduate school, Erbao did not, he chose to stay in Shanghai to work. Stayed for four years, should be tired of this fast-paced city." Early tired of, just came to the first year of boredom", why after graduation still want to stay here it? Because she ah, she in my just graduated when longing to say "Shanghai is really prosperous, when I graduated I also go to Shanghai, two treasure, you wait for me ah, by then we still put the Shanghai small noodles eat all over" a promise, I suddenly want to stay here, continue to wait for her.
I only know that half of her ideals have been realized, the university in a city with mountains and the sea, I do not know if there are a lot of handsome men, if so, she should not be alone. Everyone's youth is actually a wonderful book, cruel, sad, lucky, happy, to say all the regrets, how can use a few words to say clear. Just at that time, we thought that as long as we drink a glass of wine and eat a bowl of three dollars of noodles together, we can be forever. Until later, we went around in circles, but never met the person who could drink with me and eat noodles that would make me blush. In the dramas we have chased together, I know that Jiang Zhishu is really in love with Yuan Xiangqin, and Li Daren is really in love with Cheng Yuqing.
When she graduated from high school, inside the gift to her, there was a letter I clumsily wrote: "Dear Comrade Xu Niannian, I'm very happy to be able to know you in high school, as the only one I want to seriously understand the girl, you're great, and I have a lot of things I want to say to you, but I didn't say, this letter on behalf of the words I want to say it, in the past, I dragged you every day to go to eat noodles, because that was the time when we both You know, I don't like to eat noodles, but you like it, so I just pulled my head out of my ass every time I dragged you to eat, and then ah, I got used to it. You are in the science class, I am in the arts class, do you know how much I want to go to your class, every day in the morning exercise, I can not wait to find you in the crowd, but then realized that, do not have to find, I can see you at a glance. I don't know if you can see me, if you can't see it, I'll take it as you are nearsighted, I think, I don't have a chance to say some things now, I won't have a chance later, I want to go to the same university with you, I want to continue to take care of you, accompany you, I Yang Miao Miao although I have a lot of water, but I never watered anyone, until I met you later, it is you who gave me motivation. Now although I am young, but I know I like you, I want to use a household account with you ****, I want to have many many children with you, of course, you may read this letter, you will not care about me, it does not matter, I am mentally prepared, I will not blame you. I just hope that, if you do not love me, you love the boy in the future, must be like me, learn to take care of you, tolerate you, get used to your big grin, get used to your hanzi character, do not let you walk the dark road alone, although you are very much a rush, but a person can not, do not let you alone on the line.
Dear comrade Xu Niannian, I like you, the revolution has not yet succeeded, six water still need to work hard."
After writing this story, I remembered when I was in college, the teacher said a sentence, if in the future, if you break up with your girlfriends, no matter for what reason, who is right and who is wrong, as a man we must say a word with the girl: I'm sorry to have delayed you for so long. However, today I suddenly want to change the teacher's sentence: If in the future, you have to say goodbye to the person you like for a long time, no matter what the reason is, who is right and who is wrong, must say a: I'm sorry, like you for so long.