A few days ago, my cousin Hill, who is far away from home, sent me a WeChat asking me to forward a message.

The information content is the crowdfunding information of a public welfare crowdfunding platform, and the object of crowdfunding is her sister, that is, my cousin Sanxi.

Since boarding in high school, I have been visiting my relatives and friends in the village.

After graduating from college, I worked and lived in other places. Except for going back to my hometown for the New Year occasionally, I seldom corresponded with my relatives on weekdays.

Only when people need help will they contact each other. But I didn't expect that this contact was such a big deal.

Cousin Sanxi has cancer, which is terminal.

This is really bad news.

Sanxi is the same age as me. She is not only a cousin, but also a small partner who grew up together. Few childhood friends have been away from home for more than ten years.

The sudden news caught people off guard. After many inquiries, I got a general understanding, but it was these few words that made me very helpless and sad.

02

Sanxi is my uncle's daughter, and she has two older sisters, Daxi and Hill.

After Sanxi was born, Sanbo gave birth to a daughter at the first sight, and gave birth to a younger brother to her non-stop.

My grandfather gave birth to six sons and my father gave birth to five. This is usually the case in a family, either the boss is favored or the old man regards it as a treasure. Crane tail, like my father, is the most easily overlooked and least hated.

My son grew up and became a family. According to rural custom, he must be separated from his parents. The boss is blessed. When he got to his father, grandpa only gave him a house with incomplete tiles on the beams.

Neither father nor brothers have read any books, so most of them depend on the weather and farm for a living.

At that time, my uncle, Bo Er and Sanbo were also large families in the village. My uncle studied under my grandfather and was a famous teacher of yin and yang.

In rural areas, teachers of Yin and Yang have nothing to eat.

As long as I can remember, Bo Er is the secretary of the village branch. Although the village is poor, the life of the branch secretary will not be too sad.

03

When Sanbo was a teenager, he learned it from his teacher. Although it is the kung fu of a three-legged cat, he is also very strong. After returning home, he bought a mule for his fruit tree by his grandfather.

At that time, mules were still a precious species for farmers, and they were very rare. Therefore, planting in spring and harvesting in autumn is Sanbo's busiest time, helping others to farm and harvest food in autumn.

These are all paid, so the Sanbo family has a good life.

Comparatively speaking, my home is a little bleak.

Compared with Sanxi brothers and sisters, our brothers and sisters' lives are a little bitter.

Sanbo's family has mules for spring planting and autumn harvest, but mine doesn't. Bricklayer's father has been away on business for more than half a year, and my mother has carried our brother and sister on her shoulders to plant spring crops and harvest autumn crops. Although there are not many fields, it is only a dozen acres, but it is very tired.

At that time, my family ate white flour rice to improve their lives, and Sanbo's family ate white flour rice almost every day.

In my young opinion, Sanxi's life is simply a fairy day.

04

There are white rice to eat, new clothes to wear on holidays, and you can play as you like without nagging from your parents, and you don't have to scratch your heart and lungs for learning.

My brother and sister will be miserable. We should not only do farm work, but also read and write in our spare time. The sweetest time in my heart is the power failure, because as long as there is a power failure, the ice cream in the village canteen will be discounted.

At this time, in order to motivate us to work hard, my mother will buy an ice cream for our brother and sister.

On the contrary, Sanxi has been living a life of eating and drinking. If there is anything new in town, Sanbo and Sanauntie will buy it back to play.

In short, Sanxi grew up well in such a remote village, but when I was in junior high school, she dropped out of school like her two sisters.

It's not that her parents won't let her, but that she doesn't like reading. She said she wouldn't study, so her uncle and aunt followed her wishes and let her play.

05

In high school, my aunt eloped with a man three years older than her. The three brothers found the man's house and brought the big uncle back. Before long, Dayu eloped with another man. This time, the uncooked rice was cooked, and Daxie was pregnant.

The other party is from another county, and the uncle is full of joy and does not want to marry.

It is puzzling that Hill and Sanxi are both big streams. The man who married Hill was the same age as her, but Sanxi married a neighbor who was more than ten years older than her.

Sanxi's husband got married for the second time and had two children with his ex-wife. After being with Sanxi, they had two more children, a son and a daughter.

Sanbo felt that Sanxi's marriage was not decent, and he was very dissatisfied with Sanxi. He once cut off the relationship between father and daughter.

When Sanxi's younger brother got married, Sanxi and his two sisters pooled 50,000 yuan to give him and bought him a Santana.

Sanbo, who was dissatisfied with Sanxi's marriage, accepted Sanxi's husband and the two families moved back to normal.

06

The three sisters are very kind to their parents. When their father has a birthday, they will come all the way back to buy cakes for the birthday party and set off firecrackers in the village to add luster to Sanbo's face.

On holidays, I will also bring a lot of things to my parents.

That's what I said. It's better to have children than girls.

Everything looks peaceful and beautiful, but I didn't expect Sanxi cure a disease.

Sanxi's illness was not sudden, it happened three years ago.

According to Sanxi, there was only a bag the size of a thumb around his neck at that time. After going to the hospital for examination, he had an operation to take it out.

A centipede-like scar can be clearly seen in the photo of Sanxifa in the circle of friends.

Today, three years later, the small bag that was originally cut has recurred, and this time it is fierce, and it has developed from one bag to one in a short time.

This neck is like boiling water, with blisters one after another.

Since the onset in February, the condition has gradually deteriorated.

By the time I knew it, Sanxi's upper eyelid had bulged, and his whole neck was swollen as big as his head.

07

Three years ago, Sanxi's husband was still alive. At that time, seeing a doctor was not a problem. However, Sanxi's husband tripped while talking on the phone on a footbridge in the downtown area when harvesting autumn for Sanbo a year ago.

Sanxi has a husband and two sons who are still seriously ill. It should be very difficult.

The embarrassment after Sanxi's illness seems beyond my imagination.

Sanxi stayed in her husband's hometown for some time after his unexpected death. Because she was not liked by her relatives there, she went back to her husband's house.

Married daughters are also embarrassed to go back to their parents' homes.

Although Sanbo has stopped farming in recent years, he began to undertake the business of weddings and funerals. Although he has nothing to do with the daily struggle for money, his life is not bad.

Since Sanxi's younger brother married his daughter-in-law, Sanbo, who has always been tough, has also put down the financial power at home, and basically gave all the money he earned to his daughter-in-law to let her get married and start a family.

When Sanxi was ill in February, Hill accompanied her to the provincial hospital, stayed in the hospital for about a week, and suddenly went home.

According to my brother, it is because there is no money to cure it.

08

Sanxi lived in her mother's house for 10 months. At first, she could pick peaches from trees, but now she can only lie in bed and use an oxygen machine.

10 months, Sanxi came to the end of his life step by step.

The third uncle has lost the dominant position in the family, and his daughter-in-law has quarreled with her in-laws many times because of Sanxi.

Daughter-in-law doesn't want to spit, Sanbo seems to have found the steps.

Now Sanxi is lying in bed. Although I did crowdfunding because of a serious illness, I saw the meaning of death from the news I heard.

After Sanxi's death, Sanxi's sister-in-law has begun to persuade her in-laws to send her children to an orphanage.

Some people's hearts are soft, and heart-to-heart communication can finally bring intimate warmth. Some people's hearts are hard, and changing their hearts can't bring a truth.

Some good things are shiny on the surface, but fragile on the inside. Looking around the world, if people want to live a glamorous life, it is unreliable to rely on the sky and the ground. In the end, you can only rely on yourself.