20 181at 7 pm on October 30th, the news of Mr. Jin Yong's death came out. I quickly went to Weibo to search, hoping it was another rumor. But this time there was no rumor, and everyone was forwarding condolences.

I sat in a small restaurant for a while, put down my chopsticks and ran out to call my father: Dad, Dad Kim really died. There was a silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and a deep voice came over: I know.

As far as I can remember, the first time I heard the words "Time flies" and "Hua Shan Lun Jian", not from TV, but from my father's mouth, when I was very young, in the kitchen.

Dad likes cooking, and I like watching dad cook. He is busy in front of the pot and behind the stove. He never needs help. I just stood by and watched and listened. I heard the words "Five Overlords in the Spring and Autumn Period, Seven Chivalrous Men in the Warring States Period" and "Ji Xiaolan" for the first time in the kitchen.

Small fish, or crabs, are fried in a pot with low fire; In the summer evening, make pork belly and beans braised noodles, and then cook a pot of mung bean porridge to cool; What my sister and I crave most is the egg soup steamed by eel, and a few drops of sesame oil when it is out of the pot. It is delicious.

Everyone else has bedtime stories, and when I was a child, I used to tell stories before meals. Standing in front of the pot, looking at the greedy appearance, I swallowed. Stories can't compare with the temptation of food. I don't remember most of them, but I remember some dishes.

Often the pot is not cooked and you can't wait to take chopsticks to clip it. At the same time, pretend to ask a question, "Who won the second Huashan sword?" "Is that old urchin really crazy or playing dumb?" To silence my father, don't talk about me.

The hobby of reading, eating and cooking occasionally is actually a cigarette smoked in the kitchen when I was a child, not edified, hahahahahaha.

According to my mother, in the first few years of marriage, my father stayed at home and read novels whenever he was free, so she hid some books.

The first martial arts novel I saw later was turned out in the cupboard, and it was called "Fighting with swords and shadows". It's thick, pirated, and the paper is poor, but I'm fascinated.

That when I was in middle school, I bought pirated martial arts novels at the bookstall and always rummaged through a book called Demonbane.

Later, I learned that this book was not written by Jin Yong. He was a character who did not appear in the game. In "The Condor Heroes" and "the legendary swordsman", some pen and ink were handed down by Jianghu heroes; The martial arts are superb, and I can't beat them. So I live in seclusion in the valley and make friends with sculpture. Jin Yong wrote too much.

I really read Jin Yong's martial arts novels in detail when I was in college. At that time, I also watched Gu Long's "Sentimental Swordsman's Ruthless Sword", which is Xiao Li's flying knife. The martial arts novels in the library have also been rummaged through by everyone.

Sometimes at home, when I see the martial arts remake on TV, my dad says, I can't watch it anymore. It's not bad in Hong Kong. It is better to read the old man's book again.

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I saw a problem the other day. Who do you like best? I briefly combed the feelings of reading books over the years.

At first, it sought failure alone. Although it was pirated at first, it was unique and mysterious, even lonely, which was the first feeling of chivalry when I was a child.

Then I like Qiao Feng and think that a man should be a great hero. With talent and diligence, I will continue to criticize and upgrade, make a career, and forge ahead in the past in the United States.

Later, I liked Yang Guo, regardless of his secular vision, benevolence and morality. I just want to do what I like, just want to be with the person I like, just want to be innocent and listen to my heart.

Then I like Ling Huchong, and it's time to walk in the world. It's time to confess, don't be a villain, let alone a gentleman. Being a gentleman is too tired. Open and aboveboard, take only one scoop from the weak water of 3 thousand, have no redundant desires, be free and happy without redundant constraints.

Recently, when I was watching the legendary swordsman on the subway, I felt sad when I saw the scene of Huang Zhonggong's death. I think Huang Zhonggong is a Jianghu figure and a chivalrous man.

Huang Zhonggong is a believer in Sun Moon Shintoism and the first of the four friends in the south of the Yangtze River. Skinny, wide-eyed, strong internal force, good at seven-string sword; Love "Chyi Chin Painting and Calligraphy" piano, living in seclusion in Hangzhou Meizhuang;

Because of his lust for the legendary swordsman's music, he was deceived by Ling Huchong and Xiang Wentian to save Ren Woxing, and later refused to return to Ren Woxing and committed suicide.

Before he died, he said:

"My four brothers entered the Sun Moon Shinto, which was meant to be chivalrous and do good deeds in the Jianghu. However, the teacher had a bad temper and Fu Wei took it for himself, so my four brothers retired early. After the leader of the East took over, he favored the traitors and wiped out his old brothers. My four people are even more disheartened. I asked for this job in order to stay away from the dark cliff and not have to intrigue with others. Secondly, I live in the West Lake, and I'm worried about my piano and books. In the past 12 years, I have enjoyed enough. Life is alive, more sorrow and less joy, that's it ... "

Huang Zhonggong intends to save Ling Huchong, wants to introduce the famous killer Hiraichi, or writes to Zheng Fang, which shows that he is not an ordinary person in the Jianghu.

Small hidden in the wild, hidden in the city, hidden in the DPRK. Huang Zhonggong is tired of Jianghu and lives in seclusion in Meizhuang. He can only be a little withdrawn. It's not a hero to be quiet and stay out of it.

But these characters, how backbone, how personality. I know all the Jianghu routines, but it's annoying. I'm tired of your routine. It is not difficult to survive, but I am determined to die. Jianghu is boring to me.

Sadness in my heart also gives birth to respect. And this kind of feeling, when I was watching the Three Kingdoms, I also had it. Chen Gong and Lu Bu were captured by Cao Cao, who refused to persuade Chen Gong to surrender and follow him again, but Chen Gong refused indifferently.

He doesn't feel sorry for his talent, nor does he lament that he was born at the wrong time and didn't meet a wise Lord. Cao Cao may be a wise master in people's eyes, and Chen Gong can also see his talent and ambition.

But after they killed Lv Boshe's family by mistake, Cao Cao said, "It's better to die than to die." At that moment, Chen Gong decided to leave and no longer associate with Cao Cao.

You are ambitious and you are a big shot, so I don't have to follow. I have my principles and backbone. What to do if I don't know the times, what to do if I am a nobody, what to do if I die, and I will act according to my insistence.

Born in troubled times, Chen Gong adheres to ethics and principles. Wandering the Jianghu, Huang Zhonggong is unwilling to be lonely.

Seeing through loneliness, anger and willfulness is also a kind of generosity and freedom.

Chen Gong and Huang Zhonggong are the same kind of people. They don't have a happy ending, which makes people feel sad but gives birth to respect.

Perhaps many people have made similar changes, and no longer yearn for chivalrous people to be as solitary as Jianghu. I just want to be an unknown young Xia. I just want to stick to my principles and bottom line and live a little dignity and backbone in the chaotic rivers and lakes.

Life is impermanent If you are lucky, you can enjoy some leisure, know some elegance, have fun for a while and be proud of one or two things.

Perhaps the older you get, the less you can see the hero and the less you can see your enthusiasm for him, but you will be moved by the little people. Maybe they are the closest to ordinary people.