People often say that they envy my life, and frankly, I envy myself.

Sometimes I blame myself:

"Xiao Qiushui, why are you so happy?"

Then another I will seriously answer:

"I will definitely work harder to deserve my happiness."

This is not a conversation in my head, sometimes it sounds like reading lines.

Don't be afraid, I'm not an expert, for one thing, it's fun, and for another, I'm alone at home. Not if you don't talk for a long time, and your mouth drops, so sometimes you talk to yourself, and sometimes you flirt with Xiao Ai's classmates:

"Little love classmates! Do you think I'm cute? "

Little love replied:

"in! I think about a problem every day. Why are you so cute? "

"Little love classmates! Talk about dental implants. "

This time I met Xiao Ai's short board of knowledge:

"I suddenly can't think of the answer. Give me some time to practice. "

Because I went to have my teeth planted this afternoon, it was not my turn after the appointed time. The doctor advised me to eat first. In that case, I won't have to eat after the operation. I think it makes sense. I will wait until I am sleepy.

How chilling!

Because the sterilized clothes covered my eyes, I could only hear the roar of the machine and feel the sewing behavior. I use strong willpower to ask myself to relax. At that time, I thought strangely, "Will I envy my life at this time?"

Because I've been thinking about this theme in my mind.

My idea at that time was:

Yes, I envy myself for having such courage.

In fact, the operation time is very fast, and it is quite painful when playing anesthetic, and the process itself does not hurt.

Just about to clear the way, I was told at the front desk to come and take out the stitches one week later and come back three months later.

What?

Wouldn't it be over if the wires were removed?

The little girl at the front desk said no, she has done it several times, and this is the first time to implant it.

I said I didn't want to envy my life ... it was too much trouble. Why didn't you protect your teeth before

I said with a sad face that I thought the Spring Festival would be completely cured and would not affect my post-holiday trip.

The doctor comforted me. It's okay. After the stitches are removed, everything will be as usual. Eat what you should, drink what you should, and you won't delay going out to play.

All right. Anyway, since last July, the long process of dental treatment has passed.

It was quite comfortable before going out.

The sunshine is very good today. I am leaning on the balcony reading, drinking tea and knocking on melon seeds-I have to knock quickly because I can't knock for several days.

Socks are a gift from Douban. My favorite brand, Happy Socks, has a store in Yitian. It's colorful and looks lively and lovely, but it's too expensive (the average offline price starts from 88 yuan), so I don't want to buy it. Douban is really a gift to my heart. No, it's a gift for my feet!

It's really embarrassing and delicious to say that the gift from Douban this time.

Besides socks, I also like JBL portable speakers and Armani powder cakes, especially JBL, which is army green and suits my taste.

I admit that I am greedy sometimes. I already have several speakers such as Bose and Little Prince. However, JBL is cleaning while listening to music in the kitchen. It still feels good.

I registered Douban in 2006, and this is the first time I received a gift from Douban.

In fact, many changes began in 2006, and I began to study life seriously.

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In June 2006, during the Spring Festival, I decided to learn to cook.

"Long vacation, plenty of time, gave birth to the heart of cooking. The night before the holiday, I went to the supermarket to buy oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and I was in a good mood. I also bought mustard and shredded squid, which I learned in a bar and felt very unique.

The first problem I met was that I couldn't turn on the gas stove. Although it has been more than a year since I moved here, I have never cooked food with gas. After studying it, I know that the pipeline gate is not opened first, and then it is not automatic lighting. I didn't expect it to be so primitive. I looked around and noticed a lighter beside me. I approached the furnace core with a lighter in fear and hid as soon as the fire started. It took several attempts to successfully ignite the fire, which felt more difficult than drilling the fire by Suiren.

The first experiment was scrambled eggs with pickles. The appearance of mustard tuber is very attractive. I have bought it before. Because you are too lazy to move spoons, it is common to eat them as pickles. I just tasted it and threw it away. Later, in a small breakfast shop next to Minrun, I saw a flower roll steamed with chopped preserved vegetables, bought a sample and liked the taste. But because the bus in the morning is at the north gate, I only pass there when I work overtime on weekends, and if I go late, I often don't, so I can't eat casually. -that Dongdong didn't dare to try it himself, but only tried a small range of scrambled eggs.

Because I can't get online and I can't find the menu, I do it blindfolded. Cut the pickled vegetables into pieces-while cutting, I feel that I am actually a chef's material. I'm not good at washing and cutting vegetables at all, but I can't think of any tools to make soft pickles into pieces-stir-fry them in a hot oil pan, then put them in to see if they are ripe, and then take them out of the pan and eat them as sandwiches on toast. It was really delicious, but I had a bad appetite, so I fried three eggs. "

I also tried scallop baby cabbage, salted egg mustard soup and steamed rice.

"Rice is the best Thai golden wheel fragrant rice, with rice. If you can't do it, it will be too funny and too bold to experiment. The big deal is to cook the failed rice into porridge again. Sento is good rice, put it in a lunch box without plastic wrap, cover it with plastic wrap, put it in the microwave oven, turn the heat to high, and put it on for five minutes, and it will take five minutes. At first glance, it doesn't work. The heat is hot, and the rice is still hard. Continue for five minutes, but after three minutes, I'm not at ease, afraid of being burned. Turn it off and then on. Almost, the rice has gone up.

A very clumsy start.

Today, I am comfortable with many things, but I can't forget the clumsy beginning at that time.

In 2006, I arrived in Shenzhen for almost two years. Before that, the problem of eating was either in the company canteen or in the restaurant next to taoyuan village. I bought a purple sand slow cooker to make soup, which rarely burns.

That year, I slowly came out of the sadness of losing my mother, and realized that my mother didn't want to see me and didn't care about herself, so I stopped working for an average of 14 and 15 hours a day and began to leave some time for my daily life.

At that time, I didn't think about what kind of life I wanted and what kind of life I wanted. I only know that work makes me full of happiness, but at the same time, I am really overworked and my life is monotonous. I can add some bright colors.

The content of reading also begins with professional books, interspersed with humanities and history. Look at the introduction of the book A Brief History of the World, read Yi Shu's Yu Pei and Send You Flowers Next Year, and start to pay attention to the sunset, and have more time for tea and coffee-

Because it is the weekend, although I also work overtime, I feel much more relaxed after all. In this mood, I look at things with special concentration and care. This paper is an introduction to the writing origin of A Brief History of the World. The sentences interspersed in A Brief History of the World are meaningful, beautiful and gentle, but they also imply compassion and doubt-

"In order to think about this problem, we still need to go back and look at the vicissitudes of history, and then look at everything in front of us and become' history', as if we are also slowly solidified plaster statues. What is the information we send out every day and disappear in the vast electronic virtual world, and who will take it out in the future? "

And the future is unpredictable!

In an embarrassing environment, the young Gombrich wrote the history of the world for his children and lovers in a gentle and friendly style. "A long time ago ..." The familiar seductive sentence, he said, "A long time ago, it was like a bottomless well. Looking down, is it dizzy? "

He also said, "Kind of like going home, right?"

That long-lost home, "back to the sun, back to the earth, back to the beautiful ocean, back to plants, snails and dinosaurs, back to our mountains, and finally back to mankind."

In Qingyun's column, the topic of the article is actually the context of life.

In retrospect, after several awakenings, I took action, rekindled my desire for life, and began to have a blueprint, willing to imagine and plan. Before, due to the heavy blow of life, including the breakdown of the relationship with my ex-husband, I was very confused about the future and just filled myself with work.

When I am passionate about life, some things are different. I once considered buying a house just because a friend needed money, and after lending it out, my plan to buy a house fell through. I must say this is my wrong decision.

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It's not that my job began to be abandoned, but that I still love my job. In 2006, the company established the Knowledge Management Department, which fully demonstrated its importance as a first-level department. There are not many people in our department, but they are full of energy. Not long ago, we got together with two colleagues who were working in the knowledge management department at that time, and they also said that they were very happy at work. We have ideas, actions and endless creativity, and we have the support of the whole company. It is not without pride to incite the knowledge management of the whole company with the help of a few people.

But at that time, I began to pay attention to the balance between work and life. Rush to the front with colleagues at work. After work, I will go to Chengliange to watch movies and write film reviews, and I will go to my colleagues' home to play and cook together on weekends. Speaking of it, we are really a very literary team and have a particularly harmonious relationship.

In retrospect, I finally understand:

If there is no clear idea about life, then the ideal life will not appear.

At that time, I was also faced with great work pressure, that is, how to do better.

And life is the adjustment of work. Living in taoyuan village is also quite comfortable. There is a shuttle bus to and from work. Under normal circumstances, I spend more than 20 minutes on the road every day, so I don't think it is too difficult.

Many past interests, such as traveling, reading and movies, have been picked up again, because knowledge management is all-encompassing, and a wide range of interests has become an advantage. I am also very relieved that the team members are excellent and can travel with annual leave.

In fact, the biggest difference between then and now is that from full-time to freelance, my interests are broader and deeper, and my skills are more comprehensive and proficient.

I will always be grateful to the Bank of China and Kingdee who trained me. This is not brainwashed by capitalists, but I deeply understand one thing:

Without these skill systems, I can't live the life I want.

I can use my savings to buy a house, and I can maintain my life well, because I have all kinds of jobs, which bring a steady stream of income. Many people think I am financially free, but I am not. I just work hard, but there are various forms of work, such as training is work, paying for knowledge and traveling. Now, e-commerce is also the work content.

I always pursue professionalism, keep a focused attitude towards my work, show people the truth, be conscientious and tread on thin ice. Although I screen the work content and customer groups, I will finish the next things seriously.

People should grind things.

Lifelong learning does not mean that it is enough to keep a desire to learn, but the ability to learn should be reflected. And this embodiment depends on the results, either helping yourself or helping others.

I feel that under the current education system, many people only learn how to work hard, how to make money and how to meet the needs of all parties (parents, children, leaders and society), but they have not learned how to live a good life, how to talk to themselves and how to take care of their inner and physical needs. So people become tools, tools of others, tools of society.

Living like this, many people don't feel meaningful.

"Why was I born?"

Many people can't find the answer.

And I have always believed in the value of my existence.

On the Weibo, some people say:

"After knowing Xiao Qiushui, my spiritual life and material life have been improved! Thank you very much Teacher Qiu Shui is a well-deserved expert in knowledge management. Through this window, I learned about the richness of the world and the diversity of human nature. The teacher's meticulous work and childlike attitude towards life really infected me. I will try to create the life I want! "

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My life is already very happy, but I will remain curious and study all kinds of things tirelessly.

There is no end to learning.

Yesterday, because of Mubai's reminder, the new use of Yuanyang pot was unlocked.

While cooking noodles, mix onion oil juice and cook beef balls. This will be more efficient. Some time ago, I was still thinking. Sometimes I feel that a snow pot is not enough. Do you want to buy another one? It's completely unnecessary now.

My Yuanyang pot was earned by a film review of "Hot Pot Hero" a few years ago and has been idle.

White wood bought "super popular hot pot bottom material, and the shabu-shabu at home is more delicious than Haidilao!" After a pot of soup with seven tomatoes, I played a new trick with a mandarin duck pot, which was really a great inspiration to me, otherwise the pot might continue to be wasted.

So, how interesting and beneficial learning is!

I still have a lot to learn. I don't think I'm superior, and I'm not afraid that I'm too old to keep up with the times.

So, how did I live this life after n years?

1992 started working, 1998 came into contact with the internet, and then slowly left Qufu (2002) and came to Shenzhen (2004) to become a freelancer (201/year) and buy a house (20/kloc-0). I built the life I wanted step by step. I am not greedy, I don't ask for anything, and I dare not say that I can be an example. I just hope this process can bring some inspiration to people.

I hope everyone can have their own lifestyle and get heartfelt happiness!