I was born in a farmer's family in a remote mountainous area of Anhui, and I haven't seen my mother's face since I can remember. It was only in my father's curse and sigh that I learned that my mother couldn't stand poverty and went out to work and never came back.

My family is surrounded by walls, and there is no money for me to study, so I work around with my father, tossing and turning, and living together.

in 2112, I was 12 years old. My father and I wandered to a village in Lagu Manchu Township, Fushun, Liaoning Province, and met a mother and son-also divorced single-parent families, who kindly took us in. There is a lot of manual labor in the countryside-firewood and water, and men are indispensable. In the long run, each has his own needs, so dad and that woman get along and live together. Naturally, she became my stepmother. I thought I could enjoy some lost maternal love. However, she always beat and scolded me, and my father was too addicted to wine cards to take care of me. I became a duckweed drifting with the wind and a grass trampled by others.

that woman's son (Fan Jie, a pseudonym), 29 years old, unemployed at home, took care of me in every way. I often secretly pick some fresh fruits from the orchard for me, or drag me to swim by the river at the head of the village, so that I can taste the short-lived happiness in my childhood. Seed of love, as an inexperienced person, I feel that my heart is budding and I have something to rely on.

One night after dinner, my father and stepmother had a fierce argument about money. From the crack of the door, I saw the stepmother jump on my father like crazy and beat them together. I was shivering with fear. At this time, Brother Fan hugged me from behind, and my trembling heart gradually subsided and fell asleep in his arms. At night, I was awakened by the heartbreaking pain in my lower body. When I opened my eyes, Brother Fan's heavy body was pressing me. I was angry, ashamed and annoyed. I wanted to push it away, but I didn't have any strength. Lost her virginity in ignorance. From then on, we slept together and lived a husband-and-wife life. And dad and stepmother knew it well and didn't stop it. I don't know anything. I only know that he is kind to me (no one around pays attention to my existence), and doing that is also a good part of me. The hardships of life are diluted in the pleasure of sex and the comfort of love.

in the spring of p>14, I was six months pregnant and pregnant, and everyone in the village knew what was going on. They still turn a blind eye to this, which is not surprising. They subconsciously regard me as Fan Jie's "object", ignoring my underage status and no one reported it. Only the village director came home once to do brother Fan's ideological work and advised me to abort the fetus. Brother Fan rudely refused. The director left with an angry face and never came back. At that time, I was also afraid of the heart-wrenching pain of having a baby and wanted to get rid of it. But Brother Fan wanted it, and I only listened to him. If I lost him, my only family would be gone, and my world would be dark. ?