In July, 214, one day in the summer vacation, I took my children to the Book City, not only to study, but also to cool off. Inadvertently, I found a new book that was just published that year-"Never Have You" (Qingshan Works). On the cover, a woman in black and dark hair sat on the steps with her back to the camera, looking at the lush forest in front of her. There are ancient stone tablets on the edge of the forest, and there are white-walled buildings hidden in the forest. I was attracted by the cover and the title of the book, so I picked it up among the voluminous books and started my journey with me.
When you open it, you will know that this is Annie Baby's new work. And the pen name was changed to Qingshan. To be honest, from her first book to this book, she has published 14 books. I only read her amazing debut in the book bar where I worked as an administrator in 2 when I was a junior, a novel that looked very self-centered, very different and very new. I haven't read her book since. Now I'm surprised to see this book. What happened to Annie's baby? She stopped being a baby and went to Zen Buddhism instead. Because on the title page of this book, under a large blank is a small sentence "You have never had it. Heart is clean and enthusiastic. -Buddhist Scriptures ",and generally, I know that the nature of this book is travel notes and interviews. Although it was priced in 49 yuan, I bought it and read it carefully. Because, I have reached the age of seeking peace.
Later, this book was basically read when I accompanied my son to a table tennis training class. Even if the blackboard is not sitting in front of the desk, I am used to taking a pen and an excerpt book by my side, reading sentences that suit my heart, first drawing them with wavy lines with a pen, then copying them into the excerpt book if it is convenient to write, and then copying them when it is inconvenient. This is a habit formed at school.
There are two paragraphs in the author's Preface that can be said to summarize the contents of this book.
"My trip started in the second half of 213. Starting from Beijing, arriving, coming back, and starting again ... In this cycle, the route extends from Jiangnan to Gansu. Meet four strangers before.
A cook who loves painting and is good at cooking advocates his diet. Photographers return to their hometown and respect their hometown and nature with their series of works. Young monks use poetry to learn from Tangka, practice to understand and worship faith. The old Qin player who played in the ancient way is over eighty years old, and has experienced various changes and kept his mind on one thing. "
When the author gets along with these people, he either talks, travels together, enjoys the scenery, or enjoys fragrant tea and delicious food together. "All the details and opinions are truthfully recorded in this book."
In the process of reading it, I feel that Annie Baby has become a thing of the past. The books I first came into contact with Annie Baby are young people's wanton publicity and lofty self. In this book, a woman named Qingshan looks at all the people and things she wants to see now with her own eyes, which truly reflects the inspiration given to her by the other party in the conversation. She pulled away from herself, only quietly watching, listening and showing. After all, she is forty years old. As she said, "For me, writing this book is just recording, expressing and transmitting. Other subjective evaluations or judgments do not need to be given or defined. "
The whole book is divided into four chapters, namely, picking flowers to make spring, returning home, crossing the dream sea of reincarnation, Suqin, Guyin and Light Taste.
This chapter describes the life of a private kitchen cook who can draw Chinese painting and make wine. His name is Liu Hanlin.
When the author asked him if he had read any books about Zen, he said, "No.. Reading too many books has both advantages and disadvantages. If you read too much, you will get stuck, and you will only get out if your understanding is improved. Some people find it difficult to get out after going in, and they can't stand above the height they want. "
As for life, he has his own opinion from diet: "In fact, life can be very comfortable. There is no need to eat big fish and meat every day, and simple food can meet the needs of the human body. Just as our happiness and enjoyment need not be so extravagant. It can come from tiny things. " He values the selection of raw materials in cooking and likes to pick the freshest ingredients from farmers. The food he cooked in this chapter also made me want to try it.
He said that drinking helps to chat. "The more you drink tea, the more awake you are, and the less you want to talk. And drinking, the more you drink, the more you want to say something. " I have a similar experience in this regard.
When it comes to getting along between husband and wife, the author asked Liu Hanlin a question: Are you satisfied when you do these trivial things? He said a classic sentence: "When two people live together, it is very important to endure words. Do what you want, and don't get angry just because you did it, or blame others for doing too much. For others, for yourself, if you feel happy in life and can bear it, you can. Don't complain. "
There are many quarrels between husband and wife, and it is really because of these trivial things that whoever does more does less. People who do more complain while doing it. As Liu Hanlin said, the state of mind between husband and wife is simply too important.
He rented a courtyard in the village, decorated himself with rocks and scenery, and was called "Drunken Lodge". He only accepted reservations for food. Sometimes entertain friends, or light dishes, or special fish, with homemade pear flower wine, chatting one build what did not build; After dinner, take a walk in the mountains to help digestion and talk about scenery and life. It can be said that this is a way for many city people to retreat from the world. But most people just think about it. In order to make a living, they have to go to work late. Just like Liu Hanlin, at one time, he needed to close his drunken house and go out to work in hotels in Hainan and other places to earn some money.
Finally, when the author asked him how he felt after so many things, he said a few words that were extremely plain and enough for the author and readers to pay attention to: "Let's live in peace. Don't expect too much, and deal with problems with reason. Equal communication, truthfulness, peace and no affectation. Not eager to do something, not deliberately avoiding it. Let nature take its course and go straight ahead. "
Liu Hanlin, a cook, picks up flowers and makes spring flowers, writes and draws pictures, and influences friends around him with his attitude towards life. The existence of this person written by Qingshan also allows readers to gain a lot from him.
"The Return of the Native" is a story about the photographer Wei Bi, who "lived in a big city for many years. Later, I decided to go back to my hometown and live in the countryside. "The author first went to see Wei Bi's photography exhibition on the recommendation of a friend. The contents of his" Mengxi "series of photography works are mostly rural traditional or ancient appliances, abandoned daily necessities, and plants and crops in the field. Moreover, every photo is inscribed with a brush, and the handwriting is free and easy. After reading these, the author decided to go to Hunan to interview him.
In talking with Wei Bi, the author learned that his current income mainly depends on the sales of works that the gallery is responsible for, and commercial photography is rarely done. Wei Bi said: "If the material requirements are not high, it is still rich. There are very few things I can do, but I try to do something deeper ... If I have enough financial resources, or I don't have a livelihood at all, I prefer to be an incompetent farmer, and the happiness of contacting the land is far greater than being a so-called artist. "
he collects a lot of blue-and-white porcelain pieces, and he doesn't care about the age. He only collects them for fun because he thinks they are beautiful. Looking at the pictures of cranes, fish, phoenix wearing peony and children playing on porcelain tiles, he said with emotion: "If people can paint like this now, they are well-deserved masters. There is no frivolity, naivety and no affectation. Every time I see these ancient things, I am particularly depressed. I feel hopeless in this life. "
at night, the author lived in a bungalow on the mountain, and it was so stormy that it was difficult to sleep. The author wrote: "Listening to the rain hitting the roof, the wind sweeping through the Woods, nature makes all kinds of subtle and wonderful sounds. In addition, it is the deep silence unique to the mountain village. " Only those who are in it can have this experience.
Wei Bi said that he "doesn't even want to go to counties and cities now, and he feels uncomfortable when he arrives in the city". "In the end, his heart still needs to echo nature, from which he can get everything he wants". He used to travel around and do all kinds of jobs. Ten years ago, he was arrested for an untimely photo and was locked up for nearly three months. After he was released from prison, he also worked as a newspaper photographer and commercial photographer. Later, he chose to return to his hometown.
He said to the author, "A person's life is very short and precious, and it belongs only to himself. Don't waste on situations, people and things that have nothing to do with yourself. Live my own life, be immune to it, and stay away from the pollution as much as possible. ""I have long been tired of the city. Not only is life stressful, but I still feel that living is meaningless. It's like being caught in a torrent and living without self. If this kind of sacrifice can be called dedication, it is actually a mutual consumption. ""I can't waste my limited life on these things. Make a choice and leave. Those dozens of square meters in the city are not home, and there is no place for the soul. Escape or retreat, are all other people's statements. I know where I am most comfortable. "
But he is also very clear. Fortunately, he still has a place to retreat. Many people are not so lucky. He said: "Going back to the countryside is not my own idea, but it may represent the tendency of a large number of people of our age who have certain consciousness. It's just that some people can go home, feel powerless, have no sense of belonging, and have no home. "
When it comes to photography, he thinks that it is very important to be cautious in taking photos. Nowadays, digital cameras are ordinary, and people's hearts are disturbed. "The person being photographed is not ready, and the person being photographed is too rude and hasty. Our sense of treasure for one thing has been robbed. "
When it comes to calligraphy, he said, "Writing is not for being a calligrapher, nor for showing to others. Through it, you can cultivate your mind and open another door." "Writing is the core of China culture. Children in the future don't know traditional Chinese characters, and they are even more alienated from classics. What the ancients have to read, what has been handed down for thousands of years is the essence. We don't know the past, how can we innovate? " "Calligraphy requires balance, strength should be put away, and once it is put away, it is yin and yang. There are many ways, such as not putting away, not picking up the pen alone, etc. The road to simplicity, the truth of being a man is also unified. Calligraphy will make the heart quieter. Quietly connecting everything ... "
Living in his hometown is like living in his mother's womb, and he feels very comfortable. Using photography to express hometown will continue. "If you feel it, you can see it and shoot it. Otherwise, the heart can't connect and you can't see the divine things. "
However, he also realized that there was a part of himself that he couldn't come back, and sometimes he still looked at this land with an aesthetic eye. He felt that he was not thorough enough. The author asked him how to be thorough, and he said, "If you want to be thorough enough, don't do art or anything related to art.". Let it only exist in the process of breathing, instead of practicing it and taking it out for money. "
He made a conclusion, "Children in rural areas will have a lower starting point and may begin to understand later, but it doesn't matter. They are born in contact with the land, and the nature is good. What they can smell, see and touch is nature. There is enough perception, enough accumulated energy, and naturally there is an outbreak. "
The author Qingshan said, "There is an expression that is divergent and does not have a strong position, but it will arouse the inner harmony of others, so there is a light aesthetic feeling." "When you reach a certain level, what you don't pretend and don't say is good, and what you don't express is also good there." "Sometimes it's good to stay quietly, and you don't have to make something right away. Some people can't stop because they have to rely on creation to exist. If there is no creation, they can't feel existence. "
He replied, "I couldn't stop because I stood there and was kidnapped by something I imagined. The final test is a person's realm. Where you practice, what kind of things come out. " I am deeply impressed by what Wei Bi said.
as he said, sometimes staying in an environment for too long, being too familiar with it, will be insensitive. Need self-discipline, wake up something, drag sensitivity from numbness, have a look, touch and perceive something new. We all need it.
This chapter describes a 24-year-old Tibetan monk-Sangji Gyatso. Through his Weibo, the author learned about his life: reading, drinking tea, playing, writing, taking photos, drawing Thangka, studying, playing football on the grassland, having a picnic, making hot pot, reading poems, listening to music, sunbathing, growing flowers, making friends with wild cats ... He also had various spiritual experiences and wrote poems praising the surrounding areas.
He is a monk studying in Labrang Temple and has been to Beijing more than once. After meeting him several times for dinner and tea in Beijing, the author invited him to join him in Rinpoche, Arigang, to turn the mountain. Later, he invited the author to visit him at Labrang Temple. More dialogue records in the book happened after the author went to Labrang Temple.
The author describes what he saw here: "Many Tibetans who came to turn the sutra around the sutra turning corridor on the edge of the temple in the morning and evening, turning the sutra tube and circling clockwise. The road is very long, stretching to the mountain. Around the temple, about forty or fifty minutes. Most of the people who quickly passed were Tibetans. Holding beads in hand, chanting scriptures or spells softly, the wind generally passes by and rushes to the front. " For the local people, it is very important to turn menstruation every day. This reminds me of the crowds that I saw when I went to Tibet in 214, and the people who worshipped step by step around the Jokhang Temple. Their piety is reflected in their single-minded actions and firm eyes. Even we tourists are infected, and we follow the mountain carefully and touch every prayer wheel that passes by.
Sanji Gyatso said, "The last thing people doubt is not something, but why they want to do it. And Buddhism is to let people surpass themselves. "
the author Qingshan said, "But many people don't feel the need to surpass themselves. Self is what they value most. Self-needs are met. They think that ego can solve all problems. This is also the reason why many people cannot enter the faith. "
The author asks him, if he stays here all the time, does he sometimes feel limited by his experience?
He said, "There is no limitation without artificiality, but doing something deliberately is a limitation."
This has touched me a lot. Are there still a few things we deliberately do in life? How many fences have we set for ourselves? Limitations are self-inflicted.
In this era of free speech, too many people's expressions become anxious and ignored. Sanji Gyatso said this: "All people must be responsible for their words and deeds. What kind of consequences a sentence may have, and whether it will hurt others. But now many people don't think like this and don't care. And when they are hurt, they will even be disappointed in the world. "
He talked about his experience in meditation: "If you enter a deep state of meditation, everything will become particularly slow. The most meticulous and subtle heart exists. In this state of meditation, some memories may be aroused. These experiences may be a long time ago, as if they existed in a certain space. It was just discovered. You can see it just like a movie. "
The author asked him what he thought of vegetarianism. He said that it is impossible to eat without any harm without a complete vegetarian diet. "I don't know the true meaning of vegetarianism, but it is useless to do it just in phenomenon. Cows are vegetarian, too. "For example, some vegetarian people go to vegetarian restaurants, which are obsessed with meat and make many things taste like meat.