"What are you living for when you come into this world?" This question, if put in the past, someone asked me, I would reply dismissively: "Just be happy, no matter what!" I'm not going to think about this ultimate philosophical problem of mankind.

at that time, I was happy, although I had some troubles, but I couldn't stop laughing at all.

Life is so beautiful, you really want to ask me what I live for? I can only say to you with laughter: "For the blue sky and white clouds, the breeze and the bright moon, for the flowers and plants, for the beautiful food, in short, for all the beautiful things, well, I won't tell you, I don't have time to think about this now!"

"You must remember the good scenery in a year, especially when it is orange, yellow and green". In the season when the spring breeze is ten miles and the flowers are like flowers, think about this problem, that is: there is nothing in the world, and much ado about nothing.

however, I don't know when it started, two years ago, or earlier, and the smile slowly faded from my heart and face, so I couldn't smile, and I couldn't face myself with a sad face every day. She seems to be someone else.

I once asked my learned menstruation in despair, "Why can't I laugh? I don't seem to laugh? " Menstruation replied lovingly, "Son, because you are ill, the disease has mercilessly taken away your smile."

I know I'm sick, and I'm very sick!

some people say: be happy when you are alive. Being happy is also a day, and being unhappy is also a day. Why can't you live happily?

I understand everything. Who doesn't want to be happy? The key is that this person's heart is full of anxiety, fear, pessimism and despair. Where do you put happiness?

Almost everyone of us has experienced happiness, but few people have experienced the pain of severe depression. I also hope that after me, no one will experience the destruction and torture that life is worse than death.

Some people may say, "Look at your affectation, life is so good, what are you dissatisfied with, and what are your pains? What is there to be depressed about? They are all idle! "

There are many depressed patients in the world, such as celebrities, who are rich in food and clothing. After depression, some people choose to commit suicide. Maybe some people can't understand: "A good life is nothing but suicide. Can you live with her family and fans who love her?"

Yes, they are vulnerable. They choose to leave suddenly, and they are sorry for their caring family and friends. However, the kind of mental torture that makes people despair is the capital punishment on earth, and no matter how strong people are, they can't help destroying it day and night, every moment, every minute, every moment and everywhere.

The kind of life in which the spiritual world collapses completely every day, every day is like a year, and you can't think, speak or even walk. You lie dead in bed for a day and sit on the sofa for a day, and you are lifeless, lose all interest in life and lose all vitality. Even if you wash your face and brush your teeth, it is extremely difficult. You are in a trance, like a walking corpse, and you always feel dying, and your soul begins to wander. You never want to experience it again.

It was at this time of severe depression that I began to ask about "life".

I'm so tired. My spirit, body, life and even life are all overwhelming.

what am I living for?

I am in such pain, "Can I go to die?" I have asked my husband countless times. He can only accompany me to feel sad again and again, listen to me and say, "you can't leave me and my children!" Especially if the child has no mother, how difficult life will be! "

But I was in unbearable pain. I even begged him, "When I die, you should find a new wife who is kind to you. My living is a drag on you.".

I really can't bear to face a grumpy vegetable like me every day. My heartfelt words pierced my heart.

He became very cautious and didn't dare to say a word, because every question I asked when I was seriously ill was a proposition, not to kill my husband, but to accidentally answer wrong, I would die myself.

I'm in a trance, uneasy and almost unable to move. I'm so tired!

I often look at the roof and think, "Would it be easier if I could fly down from it?"

why should I live like this?

who am I? Where is the land I come from? Where am I going?

"I live in this world, what do I live for?" I have asked many people, and the answers are different.

A friend said, "The world is beautiful, and I live to appreciate it." Well said.

menstruation said easily, "Son, don't think too much. People live to eat, drink and have fun." I know that menstruation always wants me to relax, and I don't want to be burdened with heavy mental shackles every day.

My friend said, "For family, for responsibility", and I agree.

I once thought that I was severely depressed and would die. But after scientific treatment, accompanied by family, relatives and friends, I have come out slowly, and the hardships in the meantime will be described later.

Now, although I can't stop taking medicine, the road to treatment is long. Depression sometimes makes me twitch, sometimes makes me sick and want to vomit, sometimes insomnia, but I know that life is hard and it is not easy to live. Maybe on the way to treatment in the future, I will be dead again, but what does it matter? If a person is not afraid of death, but also afraid of living?

Grateful and depressed gentleman, let me escape from this life-and-death catastrophe, so that my life becomes extremely tough, and my life becomes more transparent and open-minded, invincible and reborn.

thank you for meeting you!

If you ask again, "What are you living for in this world?" I will seriously think about it, forget this me in the world, and seriously answer you: "Dear, in order to love myself, love my family, and love all those who deserve to be loved."

In this world, everything is small except life and death.

in life, there are joys and sorrows, laughter and tears. All physical or mental pain, or emotional torture, is an invitation from growth!

my heart is bright, my vision is broad, and I don't like things or grieve for myself.

may the years be quiet! Smile safely!