? Every day I am most at ease is to stand on the podium, yes it is at ease not happy. The last thing I want to do is get out of class and let go of school. Not to the weekend when I was thinking: this week never someone about me, mom never let me with her shopping, big sister never let me pick up the child ...... all kinds of reluctance to go out to meet people. But it is really afraid of what comes what, every to the vacation mom will always say "go, accompany me to the supermarket, accompany me to go shopping ......" is really afraid to see acquaintances, but really embarrassed to refuse the old mother, will be forced to go with her.
? Out of the door is always afraid to meet acquaintances, all kinds of head down, avoid. However, in the old small town out of the door is always to meet one or two acquaintances, and will immediately pile up a smile to welcome up "auntie good, uncle good ......" elders always like to smile to welcome, take the initiative to greet the polite girl. Whenever this happens, the elders will pull my hand and my mom said, "Look at your girl really obedient, how sweet ah this girl. I'm not sure if you're looking for a boyfriend or not, but I have a good one here. I have a good family here ......" after some pleasantries I hate to immediately disappear in the air, the heart is actually extremely hate this scene!
? Every time the most afraid to participate in the General Assembly, whenever notified of the next day to meet, the first night must be tossing and turning difficult to sleep. Inside a variety of panic: sitting in which corner is not easy to be found? I won't be allowed to speak alone in the meeting, right? The leader will not criticize me, right? I see colleagues what to say it ...... so that the nonsense of tossing the night passed, to the next day early in the morning than who ran faster than anyone, excited to the classroom set up stools, cleaned up. When you see a colleague, you smile happily, "Good morning, Mr. X." The first thing the leader said when he entered the classroom was, "I don't know what to say. The first thing the leader said when he entered the classroom was, "One look at this room and I know it was cleaned by XX, this child is too clean and works hard ......," which undoubtedly could not escape the attention of everyone. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good look at this, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good look at it.
? A whole meeting I was sitting on the side of the concentration running God, the next meeting to ask the same faculty teacher meeting content what ah? What are you doing? Colleagues looked at me with disdain, "What do you think in your little head? Day by day, notes here you take it."
? Every day is like this, the class read not to class, class look forward to quickly the next class, after school prayed that never run into acquaintances, do not have an inexplicable phone call to come in, "Let's go about dinner it ......" just want to quietly hide in their own nest in their own life. The first thing you need to do is to get a good deal of money and to get your money's worth.
? In retrospect, think about who is not living while sick of laughter, while longing to return to their own lives?
? Because of the small class teacher so every week only Tuesday and Wednesday morning class, the rest of the time I do not want to go out more than a minute. I'm afraid I'll meet someone I don't want to meet or attract unnecessary communication. But I can't avoid going out, so I put on my mask before I go out. Walking on the street in the eyes to stay exposed to the full of fear and anxiety, afraid of an accident what mistakes.
? I want to escape from this life for a long time, because it is very tiring! With a big smile, but live like ants like fear.
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