There are many kinds of secrets in the world, some of which are sweet and transparent, and you will smile when you think of them; Some, however, will be buried at the bottom of the mind and become toxins over time.

If I had to choose again, I wouldn't be the girl with so many secrets. Because these secrets don't really belong to me, and I can't help but be desperate to save them.

when the shell of keeping these secrets was broken by reality, I found that I had been making this meaningless sacrifice, risking my life for the most vulnerable feelings in the world on a lonely battlefield, only to find that my opponent was just a mirror with memory, which made me have to admit how stupid it was to bear and endure along the way.

I can't even say how painful this feeling is. In more time, I can only feel a void, a cold ridicule. And when I was exhausted in this aimless escape, I finally found out that these secrets, I just want to tell one person.

it is none other than him.

the only one in my heart.

so, I dialed the telephone of Lin Geng.

that day, when Lin Geng found me, it was getting late. This winter's rain is getting heavier and heavier, and it is mixed with hard snow sand. It is like the sizzling sound when snow appears on TV. I stand under the eaves of a grocery store, and my tears have stopped flowing, just counting the raindrops.

He appeared in front of me, wearing a wet raincoat and holding an umbrella under his arm like a briefcase. As soon as he saw me, he ran across the street to this side of the road. The rain splashed his face, which once made me so nostalgic.

"I finally found this place." His voice was a little loud, and he drowned out the falling rain. "What the hell happened? How did you do this to yourself?"? Huh? " He looked at me a little seriously, with reproach and pity in his tone.

I don't look at the rain, I look at him, but I just don't talk.

He quickly opened the umbrella for me, put my hand on the handle, and said anxiously, "Why bother? I'll take you home."

His appearance today is not as handsome and calm as usual, but like a helpless father who advised his children to go home, he is diligent and tired, but it warms my heart like never before.

look, how disappointing I am, which makes him so worried.

"I have no home." I tried to calm my voice, but I finally choked up and said this.

Before Lin Geng could speak, I called out again, "Teacher …" Then, burying my face in my hands, I bent down involuntarily and fell into his arms. He didn't refuse me.

I finally burst into tears.

In this freezing winter, I was shaking all over. I grabbed his clothes with one hand and tried to cover my mouth with the other, but it didn't weaken my crying at all. I cried so hard that I could simply describe it as a roar that I alarmed the pedestrians on the road. They stopped with umbrellas and watched me acting strangely. They must think I'm crazy, but what can I do? If I can control myself, why should I do it? Damn the feeling of nothing, it is powerful enough to destroy a person's self-esteem. This feeling makes me unable to endure the impulse to cry any longer. I cry as violently as vomiting. I try to cry all my dark and wet past and grievances, just in front of Lin Geng.

Because, in this cold world, I only have one warmth left, that is, he, that is, Lin Geng who finally held me in his arms at this moment.

I dreamed about this moment for so long, but this moment came so quickly and truly that I could feel the smell of plastic rubber on his raincoat.

I feel like a koala shot by a hunter and dying.

pain, but also happiness, no longer have to climb to live.

fortunately, my tree finally didn't push me away, but held me in my arms.

He reached out and patted me gently on the back, letting me cry. I don't know how long it took before he said, "You seem to have suffered a lot, Tian Dingding."

I nodded desperately on his shoulder, but I didn't know if he could see it.

"You seem to be crying more and more," he sighed and helped me up. "What do you want me to do with you?"

what should I do with you if you want me?

this sentence is like a soft nail, which goes straight into the most untouchable corner of my heart. I panicked to avoid his eyes, but I just met his eyes.

although I was still shaking, I suddenly stopped crying.

at that moment, he was looking at me, his eyes were bright, as if he had said a thousand words, but he didn't say a word.

at that moment, it stopped raining all over the world. I looked at his wet hair and feet with ecstasy, and suddenly wanted to reach out and straighten them out-of course, I didn't.

as god is my witness, I didn't have any impure thoughts in my heart at that moment, even, I didn't have any thoughts. I just wanted this moment to last day and night, forever and ever.

However, in a few seconds, Lin Geng pushed me behind me and said firmly, "Come, I'll take you home."

"No." I said, "My mother doesn't want me."

"You are stupid. No one has ever said angry words. My mother always told me that at that time." He said, "Come on, listen to the teacher and trust me."

I can't refuse him.

So, I was finally taken home by Lin Geng.

The moment the door opened, I thought it would be a storm. I thought Luo Meimei would jump and scold me and scold Lin Geng, but none of this happened. What I never expected was that when she opened the door and saw me, she didn't say anything, just hugged me and burst into tears.

"where have you been?" She cried and said, "If you don't come back, how can your mother live?"

please believe that at that moment, I was so cherished and moved that I almost drowned. So much so that I almost fainted.

I was caught in the rain and lay at home for three days because of a fever.

In these three days, Luo Meimei didn't go to work, but stayed at home with me every day. She cooks for me in different ways every day, but unfortunately my appetite is disappointing, otherwise, it will definitely burst into fat again.

She kept it a secret, as if everything that happened before was a dream. I tried to explain to her when I woke up, but she shook her head and stopped me from talking.

well, if she can forgive me everything, isn't that what I dream of?

She is my mother. No matter what happens, no matter how heinous crimes I commit, how big lies I tell and how deeply I hurt her, she will never abandon me and hate me. She will always be the one who opened the door for me and hugged me first. I am glad that I turned to Lin Geng for help that day, so that I was lucky enough to understand this great truth and didn't do anything stupid.

"mom." I finally said, "I like our teacher, but I really just like it. I haven't done anything bad. Do you believe me?"

"hmm." She gently cut my hair. "I talked to Miss Lin."

really? Have they talked? What have they talked about? What will Lin Geng say about me?

"you have grown up." Luo Meimei seemed to look very emotional. "In fact, when my mother was young, she liked her own teacher. It's nothing, it's my mother's fault."

My tears welled up again because of Luo Meimei's words.

God, how can I thank Lin Geng?

"by the way, let me show you something." Luo Meimei said, got up and brought a small list from the living room. When I saw it, it was a money order from Lin Zhi. 15 yuan.

message: I'm sorry.

"silly boy." Luo Meimei said, "But mom is glad that you are so helpful. If you need anything in the future, just ask her and don't do anything stupid again, okay? Although my mother doesn't have much money, she is a good person like you. "

I smiled foolishly.

actually, Lin zhi, there is no need to say sorry. in fact, I have never really blamed you. When I go to school tomorrow, I must tell you personally that we are still best friends. I just don't know, are you willing or not?

Luo Meimei said she would make me something to eat, so she went to the kitchen. I have recovered a lot. I took out my mobile phone from under my pillow, and it turned off automatically because there was no electricity. I found a charger to recharge it, and I was going to give Lin Geng a thank-you message and call Lin Zhi again. Unexpectedly, a phone call came as soon as it was charged.

It's Ding Lishen's name that flashes on it.

I hesitated to answer it, but in the end, I answered it.

"Lin Zhi is going to commit suicide, Lotus Building, the top floor." He said this briefly and then hung up.

suicide? Lotus building, top floor?

Is Lin Zhi going to commit suicide?

How does Ding Lishen know that he won't lie to me? But why did he lie to me?

At the thought of this, I almost jumped out of bed. While Luo Meimei was busy in the kitchen, I slipped out of the house quietly. As Zhou Chumu said, I took a taxi quickly and arrived at the Lotus Square.

Oh, my Lin Zhi, you mustn't have anything!

after jumping out of the car, I stood in the middle of the square and looked at the roof from a distance, but I couldn't see anything.

to my shock, a large dark cloud is gathering on the roof of the square at the moment, as if a pair of hands had gathered all the dark clouds in the sky, deliberately brewing a flood of rain.

when my heart shakes, I seem to see a very bad sign. On this cloudy rainy day, Lotus Square is still crowded with pedestrians, but no one looks up. I hate this towering building, which is far beyond people's sight.

I ran at once.

I forgot that Lotus Square is the tallest building in the whole city, and what happened here last year was not too long ago ... suicide.

suicide.

when I thought of these two words, my heart jumped abruptly, and the feeling of fear surrounded me again.

The pedestrian elevator in Lotus Square can only sit on the 46th floor.

the next section of the road is a narrow and steep staircase.

when I finally climbed to the top of the building, I almost fell down because of what I saw.

Lin Zhi turned his back on us and threw off his socks and shoes out of thin air.

Then, like a female knight, she stepped majestically onto the armrest that was not wide, tore off her hair rope and threw it away, then stood on her bare toes and danced on the armrest.

I almost screamed, but I knew that if I did, she might jump at all costs.

where's ding lishen? Why isn't Ding Lishen here? Why not stop her?

Lin Zhi wears very little. I recognize that it is a summer school uniform in the sky. The skirt of the school uniform is made of crimson plaid, which is very close to the skin. In summer, when Lin Zhi wore it, I always admired her white legs with other girls, but at the moment, her bare slender legs, like two carrots, were burning and trembling in the howling wind in winter, which anyone could not bear to look at.

and that black cloud is hovering over her head at the moment, and the coming rain is so heavy that I can't stand still.

I finally couldn't help calling her name: Lin Zhi ...

She turned to look at me, and her eyes were different from before.

She had long hair flying in the strong wind and gave me a sad smile. My heart was almost crushed by her smile.

"Lin Zhi, don't do this. Come down. Come down and let's go home together." My brain is blank, Zhou Chumu, where have you been? You think too highly of me for giving me such a difficult problem. Don't you know that only you can save her?

"Lin Zhi." My tears came down and my brain went blank. I could only beg her, "Please, don't do this, please."

"Tian Dingding" her voice came from a distance, gentle and firm. "Don't cry, Tian Dingding, I don't deserve this."

"No." I said, "You are my best friend."

"Really?" She said, "Silly Tintin, do you really think so?"

"really, really." I said, "We are good friends for life, for life."

She smiled and sat down facing me on the railing, her red legs intertwined like two playing carp. She still didn't speak, but her eyes drifted behind me.

I turned around involuntarily, too.

It's Zhou Chumu! He finally showed up! Like the prince in all stories, I finally hate him a little less.

He was only wearing a black light coat, and he moved forward step by step with his hands in his pockets. He looks like a punk who just walked out of the casino, completely unaware of the upside down outside.

He just called her, "Linlin."

"you go." Lin Zhi's voice is as calm as before. She said, "You should go to the square and stand by the fountain and wait for me."

Zhou Chumu just said, "You belong to a scientist, Madame Curie."

at this critical moment, what kind of conversations are these? I doubt that I heard wrong, but all this is so real.

maybe, I still don't understand love, at least love. The secret between them cannot be told, nor can it be understood by outsiders. Only they understand.

I am as helpless and struggling as a spectator. As he spoke, he continued to walk to Lin Zhi, and walked to a place close to her, as if he had not heard what Lin Zhi had just said: "Madame Curie discovered radium, and she also won the Nobel Prize. She is Polish. She loves her motherland and has made many contributions to it. I've studied all these, haven't you thought of it? Would you like to see my notes? Would you like to come to my house and have a look with me? "

Lin Zhi shook his head and kept shaking his head, as if he had been enchanted.

"honey, come." Zhou Chumu held out his hand at her. "I'll take you there."

Lin Zhi shook his head and leaned back. I think I'm going to die. I want to scream, but I can't. So, I must be dying.

Just then, I saw Zhou Chumu striding forward, and finally hugged her and rescued her from the dangerous handrail that left her dead at any time.

I clearly saw that her brow was tight, and she closed her eyes, and she shed tears at the moment when Zhou Chumu saved her.

my heart fell to the ground in an instant, and it was full of pain. I covered my mouth, and my tears couldn't help falling. I don't know the origin of my tears, whether I was moved by such love or frightened by the scene just now.

I can only go forward and break off Lin Zhi's fingers one by one again, and then hold it tightly as if it were frozen, as if we had never misunderstood and separated.

Lin Zhi closed her eyes. I think she must have been frightened by herself. Zhou Chumu held her, and I kept holding her hand. We walked down the long stairs together and pressed the elevator.

just as the elevator door was about to close, I saw a man.

ding lishen.

He looked up, took a look at us and disappeared at the elevator door.

love, how inexplicable it is.

Lin Zhi went away.