(1) First acquaintance

I met Dan in 2002. About twenty years old, with short hair, big eyes, and enchanting makeup. The childish look on her face couldn't contain the story behind her, and it was obvious at first glance that she was not a good girl.

At that time, Dan was living with a man about thirty years old, living next door to the room that my best friend and I rented. We occasionally meet her in the corridor. She is either wearing loose pajamas and walking out with a puppy, or she is wearing a fashionable dress and age-inappropriate makeup and holding the man's arm. She smiles at us every time we meet, and we smile politely in return.

One day, my best friend and I were cooking in the corridor and chatting in our hometown dialect. Dan’s voice suddenly appeared next to us: "Are my two sisters also from southern Shaanxi? Me too." This is the first time. Once I heard her speak, her voice was very nice and sweet. Although we are fellow villagers, we did not close the distance between her and us, and we would occasionally meet and say hello after that.

About a month later, when I came back from get off work and was taking the key to open the door, Dan walked out of her room and said, "Sister, I made the rice porridge from our hometown today. Let's eat it together." He quickly said: "No. Thank you!" "Oh, I'm the only one at home today. My boyfriend doesn't like to eat this kind of porridge, and I can't cook it alone. I thought you guys might also like it, so I cooked it specially. I’ve prepared a big pot for you to eat together after get off work.” There was a look of begging in her eyes, and I didn’t know how to refuse. To be honest, I always felt that she was incompatible with us little girls who had grown up with traditional education and had just come out of school. Even though we were from the same hometown, we didn’t want to get too close to her, so I said we would wait for my best friend to come back. past.

This is the first time we enter Dan's room. A large bed, a wardrobe and a dressing table occupy most of the room. There are coffee tables, sofas and other furniture near the door, and TVs, washing machines and other electrical appliances are placed against the wall opposite. The room was not tidy, and the bed was piled with clothes she had thrown away. The rice porridge is very authentic, and the four side dishes are also very delicious. I can't believe that this dish was made by Dan. Hearing our compliments, Dan said proudly: "I have also owned a restaurant, and cooking this dish is not a piece of cake." I asked her, "Does your family run a restaurant?" "Not mine. It's me. My ex-boyfriend and I opened it." Her answer surprised me. I didn't expect this little girl to have experience in opening a restaurant. Since then, Dan has always taken the initiative to chat with us when he saw us, and occasionally he would come to our room to sit for a while.

One weekend, my best friend and I were making lunch in the corridor. Dan stuck his head out from the crack in the door, "Sisters, what are you cooking for delicious food? I was woken up by the smell in my sleep. Can I have some food?" "Okay, okay, get up and eat together." Come on." We greeted politely. A few minutes later, Dan got dressed and walked out, "I'm going downstairs and I'll be back soon." After a while, I saw Dan coming back with a few food bags, and I could smell the fragrance from a distance. . "I bought roast duck, cold dishes, and some steamed buns for everyone to eat together." During the meal, my best friend asked Dan gently: "I often see you going out after get off work recently. Do you go out to play at night?" "How can I have fun? Yeah, I'm going to work, selling wine in a disco bar. My boyfriend is gone, and I have to support myself." "You guys had a fight, right? Don't be sad, he'll be back in a few days." comforted. "I won't be sad. In the past few months with him, I have made no losses and spent almost more than 10,000 yuan on him. He bought all the furniture and electrical appliances in my house, as well as this leather jacket. Every day Give me a thousand yuan a month for living expenses. Is this more than what you earn from working?" For a moment, my best friend and I didn't know how to answer the question, so we just let Dan continue. "Before him, I have been with five men, so I don't care if there is one more. Just wait, I will find a richer one in a few days." Looking at Dan's indifferent look, we know everything All my attempts to persuade him were in vain. We were originally from two different circles, and it was impossible for us to be spiritually connected to each other. I just didn’t understand why Dan became like this.

One day not long after, it was Dan’s birthday, and the three of us got together again. After a few glasses of beer, everyone talked more, talking about family, the past, and the future. It was during this gathering that I learned about Dan’s story, which not only satisfied our curiosity, but also deeply shocked us.

(2) Dan’s story

Before the age of thirteen, Dan, like all happy little girls, lived a carefree life and enjoyed the pampering of his family. In the old society, my grandfather was a big landowner with two wives, his father was an only son, and she and her brother were the rare treasures of the entire family. With his excellent family genes, my father began to contract land in the village to cultivate saplings in the early 1990s. Within three or four years, he made a lot of money and became the first family in the village to live in a building. Needless to say, Dan has been the envy of his peers since childhood.

However, a major event happened this year, which caused Dan's fate to undergo earth-shaking changes. In the early summer of that year, Dan and his two little sisters made an appointment to walk home through the fields after school. There are large tracts of rapeseed flowers on both sides of the path, and they are like three little butterflies active in the field, running, jumping, and so happy. After a while, the three people's bodies and faces were covered with yellow rapeseed pollen. In order to avoid being scolded by their parents, they planned to wash themselves in the nearby canal before going home.

The steps of the artificial canal were relatively narrow, so the two friends rushed to wash their faces. They played with the water while washing, while Dan stood on the slope not far from them and waited anxiously. Suddenly she saw one of the friends slipping and fell into the ditch. The other friend quickly reached out to pull, but unexpectedly he was pulled into the ditch. Dan was petrified by what she saw. She wanted to call someone, but the area was surrounded by vegetable fields and there was no human habitation. It was the rainy season in early summer, and the water in the canal was almost two to three meters deep. In a moment, the two companions disappeared in front of Dan... Dan didn't care about washing the pollen on his body, and ran back to his home. His mother was not at home, so Dan quickly sneaked up to his room on the second floor. All this was so sudden, she didn't know whether she should tell her family, she didn't know if all this was real or a dream...

When Dan woke up, she found her mother standing beside her bed. , it was her mother who turned on the light in the room and woke her up. "So you are at home. We are looking for you all over the village. I heard from your classmates that you went away with Honghong and Juanjuan. They haven't come back yet. Do you know where they went?" My mother asked. , Dan couldn't control it anymore, cried and told his mother what happened. The bodies of the two friends were found two hours later. Although Dan luckily escaped with his life, in the following days, people filled their yard with wreaths every day, and they demanded that Dan pay for their child's life. During that time, Dan really wished that it would be great if she left with her two friends...

Dan was sent to his uncle's house in another place by his parents. Although she was often awakened by nightmares, she finally finished her junior high school course calmly. Under his father's arrangement, Dan went to study at a vocational technical secondary school in the city. Although it was a few years ago, the two friends often appeared in her mind. She had no intention of studying. She heard that the outside world was very exciting, and she wanted to go out and see it as soon as possible.

Dan is in love with a young man in his twenties named Fan. Just after the New Year, Dan came to Xi'an with Fan with the tuition money provided by his family. With the help of Fan's good friend A Yong, they rented a private house in a village in the city and settled down. Tasting love for the first time, the two enjoyed the sweetness of love to their heart's content and lived like a pair of fairy companions. In order to make a living, Fan went out to look for a job, while Dan, who was only 16 years old, stayed at home and waited for Fan's return except visiting Internet cafes. As a very responsible man, he takes great care of her. He prepares breakfast for her every day before going to work. In the evening after get off work, he sells vegetables, cooks, washes and mops the floor, and is busy non-stop. Faced with such a gentle and simple Fan, Dan once thought about spending his life with him.

That day, Fan, who came home from get off work early, opened the door and found Dan sitting in A Yong's arms. The two former good friends started fighting.

Dan knew she was wrong, because emptiness and boredom caused her to get entangled with A Yong, who was looking for a job recently. During this time, A Yong filled the loneliness and emptiness in her heart, but made her lose Fan forever. One morning, Fan left a thousand yuan and a letter and returned to his hometown with simple luggage.

A Yong moved here a few days later. In fact, Dan didn’t really want to be with A Yong. In the following days, the two of them bickered and eventually parted ways. Dan stayed alone in Xi'an without any relatives. She heard people said that it was easy to make money in factories in Guangzhou, so she used her last few hundred yuan to sell train tickets to the south...

On the train , Dan began to get close to various people, and finally she found a man who seemed very kind, could understand what he said, and got off at Guangzhou Station. During the train ride, she got to know this man. After getting off the train, Dan told the elder brother that she had nowhere to go and hoped to help him find a job. With the help of this man, Dan quickly entered a job in an electronics factory, and his life got on the right track from then on.

When she was 18 years old, Dan met the man with whom she almost got married. Life in an electronics factory is always busy and fulfilling, even a little bit tiring. Living and working with peers is also a lot of fun. Bin is Dan's fellow villager, a very clever boy, who was only 19 years old at the time and had been working in Guangzhou with his father for two years. At a hometown gathering, Dan and Bin met. Bin was a sunny boy who liked girls very much. He fell in love with Dan at first sight, and soon the two fell in love. Later, under the leadership of Bin's father, the two young people began to plan for the future. The three of them rented a stall at a small food stall in front of the factory and started a catering business. Business was slow, but every time she heard the working girls who came to eat calling her "boss lady," Dan felt extremely happy. At least she already had a goal in life.

At the end of that year, Dan prepared to go back to his hometown with his boyfriend and his son. It had been three years since Dan came out, and she had never contacted her family. She thought it was time to go home and have a visit, and casually discuss He Bin's marriage. When Dan's taxi stopped in front of his yard, his mother and grandma were sitting in the yard having breakfast. The door of the yard was open. When Dan shouted "Mom", his mother's head turned slightly, and then He lowered his head and continued eating. Suddenly, she suddenly turned her head to look at the door, and then ran out staggeringly. Then, the three of them hugged each other and cried loudly...

In the following days, There was an endless stream of guests at home, all coming to visit Dan. There has been no news from Dan in the family over the years, and they all thought she was no longer alive. I heard that there was an unknown female body found somewhere, and my father even went to see it. This Spring Festival is the happiest festival that Dan has experienced in recent years. Not only does he have the care of his whole family, but he also has a sunny and handsome boyfriend to accompany him. After the family reunion, it was time to think about Dan and Bin's marriage. When my parents heard the name of Bin's hometown, they shook their heads anxiously. It turned out that it was a notoriously remote area. Later, his father suggested that Dan and Bin should work first, and when they were a little older, he could lead Bin in business, and then buy a house near the county seat before getting married. Bin's family also agreed to this suggestion.

After the Spring Festival, the two came to Xi'an and started looking for jobs. It is still difficult to find a suitable job in an unfamiliar city. Later, Dan worked as a waiter in a restaurant, and Bin worked as a salesperson in a small advertising company. Their lives finally settled down. Unexpectedly, not long after the stable life, Bin's company went bankrupt, the boss disappeared, and the three months' salary the company owed its employees was lost. During this period, all living expenses were supported by Dan's meager salary, which undoubtedly made this small family worse. Bin, who was usually optimistic and cheerful, became depressed for a time. With Dan's encouragement, Bin finally cheered up and started looking for a job again.

On this day, Dan Hebin said that a salesperson who supplied red wine to their restaurant wanted her to go to a disco bar to sell red wine. I heard that it was easier to sell red wine in a disco bar, and the commission was also very high. Want to try it. But Bin didn't want Dan to work in that kind of place, so Dan didn't insist and continued to work as a waiter in the restaurant.

As Bin's job search took longer, Dan could no longer bear the tight life. She felt that her future hope was slim, so she finally took advantage of her vacation to go to a disco bar with Bin on her back. Dan was eloquent, lively and cheerful, and easily sold three bottles of red wine. Dan could no longer hold back her inflated self-confidence, so she resolutely quit the restaurant company and devoted herself wholeheartedly to selling red wine in disco bars.

Whenever Midnight Dan comes home smelling of alcohol, what she gets instead of Bin's care and care is endless noise. On the one hand, it was Dan's increasing income, on the other hand, Bin could not find a job for a long time, and the two of them had endless quarrels. Finally one day, Bin left a letter and left the rental house... When Dan saw this letter , she searched for Bin all over the world like crazy. Dan learned from Bin's parents that Bin went to Guangzhou alone, but he did not leave any contact information for his family. After half a year of waiting and searching, Bin could not return. She never thought about giving up Bin, she just wanted their life to be better in the future. The two years of getting along day and night were no match for the life of jealousy and mutual suspicion, which made Dan heartbroken.

There was a man and his friend in the disco bar who took good care of Dan's business. They would take the initiative to consume Dan's red wine every time. Because that man always had a cool look like the young and Dangerous boy played by Ekin Cheng, Dan always called him "Brother Jian", and he readily agreed. In the past six months, Brother Jian has been pursuing Dan either fiercely or insipidly. Dan, because he was still thinking about Bin, didn't take him seriously and kept a distance from him. On this day, when Dan failed to inquire about Bin again, she drank a lot of red wine. When Brother Jian sent Dan home who was very drunk, Dan asked him to stay...

The days spent with Brother Jian made Dan feel novel and colorful. Brother Jian would take her to various places to have fun all day long, or he would disappear without a trace in front of her for three or four days in a row. For such a man, Dan actually felt very excited. She didn't think about their future, she just wanted to enjoy the happiness of the moment. However, in the middle of the night two months later, a siren pierced the night sky, and Brother Jian was taken away from Dan's bed...

In the next more than half a year, two more men moved in one after another. Dan's room. Dan said that she no longer has feelings. Since Bin left, she has understood everything. Who can she live with? Why should she have to work so hard? Even if Bin comes back to her now, she won't want him anymore.

? (3) An ending that is not the ending

When we know Dan’s story, we are no longer as repelled by her as before. My best friend and I often advise Dan to cherish herself and find someone who truly treats her to get along with her seriously. After all, the days ahead are still long. No man appeared in her room in those months, and we were sincerely happy for her as we watched Dan gradually lead a normal life.

It was a sunny afternoon, and my best friend and I were reading on the balcony. Dan came back with a happy face carrying large and small bags of things. Passing by us, she said happily: "Sisters, we haven't seen each other for a long time. Shall we go out to eat hot pot tonight?" During the meal, Dan finally couldn't help telling her recent situation. She said that there was a man here during this time. pursue her. He is nine years older than her, works in a public institution, and has his own house. He is dating her for the purpose of getting married. We are all happy for Dan and hope she will stop playing games with life and take this relationship seriously. Dan said that she had thought about it very seriously. She felt that this man had good conditions in all aspects and was a good man who lived a down-to-earth life. However, this man was boring by nature, which also made her feel that life lacked some passion...

A month later, my best friend and I moved away from here due to job changes. Since then, we have stopped contacting Dan, and the only contact we have is an occasional phone call. One night, my best friend came back and said to me mysteriously: "Do you know who I met today?" It turned out that she met her neighbor who lived on the same floor before on the road, and the neighbor told her that not long after we moved out, Dan also After moving away, a few days later a man came to the house next to the building, looking for Dan.

Only then did they know that Dan was in love with this man and had met his family, but after living with him for a period of time, Dan took away 6,000 yuan from his family and disappeared...

Listen to my best friend After talking about this incident, although I was not surprised, I was also extremely sad. Maybe we don’t really regard Dan as a friend in our hearts, but we sincerely hope that she can break away from her previous life trajectory and get on the right track as soon as possible. The occurrence of this incident made us feel that Dan was so hopeless, thus terminating all contact between us and her.

After many years, when I think of Dan occasionally, ripples will appear in my heart. I wonder what happened to this little girl who had gone through many vicissitudes of life? Has she found the happiness she wanted? What kind of man would be able to stop her, a little bird that dreams of distant places...