Yu Juan is a young teacher in Fudan University. She has an enviable job and an enviable family. She is what her mother calls "someone else's child".
She works very hard at school, work and family, almost without stopping for a moment, but the high-intensity load also causes her body to collapse.
At the age of 3 1, she developed cancer.
At the end of her life, she began to reflect on her life: in the face of cancer, working overtime, buying a house and buying a car are all floating clouds.
Yu Juan, 1978 was born in Jining, Shandong Province. She is a young university teacher and works in Fudan University.
In 20 10, she left a "cancer diary" that touched countless people. In the diary, Yu Juan recorded her painful illness experience and life sentiment with warm and simple words.
In the first 30 years without cancer, Yu Juan's life was as excellent as a textbook. Excellent university teachers and returnees from prestigious universities have been working hard for their studies and work, and they have not fallen behind in postgraduate studies. I just graduated and got married, but I gave birth to the next generation at the age of 30.
Such a life is beyond many people's dreams, but fate has played a big joke on her.
At first, it was just a slight backache. Yu Juan didn't take it seriously and continued to live step by step. The new goal she set for herself was to be an associate professor in two or three years.
She is desperately writing articles and doing research. She often turns around at home and school, and even spends a lot of time sleeping, and she doesn't care about this little low back pain.
Later, the whole person couldn't get out of bed with low back pain, and he couldn't even wear socks himself. Her husband felt that he couldn't go on like this, so he began to take her to see a doctor and went to many hospitals. Without exception, he said that it was lumbar muscle strain and prescribed a lot of plasters. However, the symptoms of low back pain have not been alleviated, but have intensified.
Strangely, I did an MRI, had a blood test, and was taken to various hospitals by ambulance for other tests, but I still couldn't find out the cause. Yu Juan's condition deteriorated in a very short time, and her body ached when she touched it. Even the bumps in the ambulance would cause her to twitch.
Even so, the doctor didn't find out the cause, and waited in the emergency room for two months. Without a treatment plan, Yu Juan could only endure the pain. Although Yu Juan was very strong, there were still many times when he couldn't persist, and sometimes he even wanted to get it all over.
She even thought about her will, but at the thought of her young children, she still endured the pain. Motherly love gave her the desire to survive.
After the difficult puncture, the cause finally got the result, which turned out to be breast cancer. Because of the treatment, all the family resources were spent, and the medical expenses for one week were 40,000 to 50,000. Frequent chemotherapy also made Yu Juan lose her beautiful hair, and the side effects of drugs made her feel miserable and her limbs were cold.
In desperation, she gave up the treatment in a regular hospital and mistakenly believed in a charlatan called "Doctor Yang".
By chance, they heard that there was a "doctor Yang Shen" who specialized in treating cancer. Under the hype of "Doctor Yang", Yu Juan gave up the treatment in a regular hospital and chose to believe in Doctor Yang.
There are also two cancer patients who went with Yu Juan. Doctor Yang asked them to go to the village on the mountain because he said that the air there is good and rich in selenium, which is conducive to the treatment of cancer.
It is also required to control the disease with the "hunger therapy" he studied and Chinese medicine conditioning, with a course of treatment of 20 days and three courses to ensure recovery.
Hunger therapy requires that you can't eat normally every day, and you can only eat some grapes and taro to satisfy your hunger, which makes the already weak patients hungry and very painful, and it is difficult to maintain their lives.
The patient who gave up the normal nutritional supplement is very weak, and he still has to drink the Chinese medicine that Yang Shenyi doesn't know what ingredients are. The two patients who went with Yu Juan had symptoms of coughing up blood and vomiting blood, but Yang Shen-yi did not agree that the drug effect was effective, and the "cancer cells" were spit out.
The three patients continued to struggle. They were far away from the city center and had to stay here. It was not until the 40th day that a patient suddenly went into shock and was sent to a regular hospital for emergency treatment that they realized that this might be a scam.
After the case was revealed, Yu Juan was the only one who survived after the rescue.
The family members of the deceased patients reported the case to the police. In order to help them, Yu Juan let the case come out early and let the deceased rest in peace. She dragged her weak body and actively cooperated with the police to expose the scam.
In her diary, she wrote: I have a backbone that is riddled with cancer cells, and I have to hunch over because I can't support my own weight and have a compression fracture. I decided to be the backbone of society. "
Finally, the fraud team was brought to justice, but Yu Juan missed the best treatment period. More than a month of "hunger therapy" made her suffer, and cancer cells in her body also metastasized.
Yu Juan, who walked out of the scam, did not continue to be treated in the hospital, but chose to rest at home.
She used the Internet to record her illness and to exchange experiences and encourage each other with cancer patients from all over the country.
She hopes that everyone can change the unhealthy lifestyle in the past through her words and enjoy life better. She keeps updating two blogs every day and begins to look back on her short and brilliant life.
When she was young, she was always busy. Basically, she didn't sleep before 12 o'clock. Reviewing for the postgraduate entrance examination, reading reference books and taking the GT exam became her reasons for staying up late. Sometimes, for the exam, she read books for 2 1 hour.
Bowling, disco dancing and karaoke are also part of her "nightlife". Sometimes she stays up all night, and she has never thought about the consequences of staying up late.
Although staying up late does little harm to the body, it is also very scary in accumulation. What's more, Yu Juan is very competitive, loves to lose his temper, and wants to do everything best.
This puts Yu Juan under great pressure both physically and mentally, and has given cancer an opportunity for a long time.
It's hard to imagine that a strong woman who was in high spirits when she was young was later lingering on her sickbed. Looking back on her life, she labeled herself as "meaningless" because she had overdrawn herself because of the pursuit of fame and fortune.
Maybe Yu Juan is a good teacher, a good student and a good friend, but she is not a good daughter, a good wife and a good mother. She spends too little time at home, studying and working hard every day, overdrawing her body again and again and rushing to life.
Everyone's life is only once. When we come to this world, we must appreciate the beauty of the sun, moon and stars, mountains, lakes and seas, and feel the simplest and warmest beauty of life.
In the face of life and death, Yu Juan also understood that working overtime, buying a house and buying a car are all floating clouds. Living well is the "king", but fame and fortune are just that.
She hopes that she can spend more time with her children in the future, give up the work that makes her tired, spend time with the people she loves, and live a dull and happy life.
She didn't realize the importance of health until she died, and her understanding of happiness was different from before. People's happiness is actually very simple. Sometimes, a simple life can be happy without great power and piles of money.
Ideals and goals are our goals, but they are not the shackles of our lives.
On April 20 1 1, Yu Juan died after being rescued. After only 33 years, she has lived a short life.
What does a person live for all his life?
Of course, in order to have a beautiful life, if we work hard for money, fame and fortune all the time, then many of us will, like Yu Juan, feel the fragility and preciousness of life when life is about to burn out, and regret that we didn't hug each other warmly with our loved ones.
We never know which comes first, tomorrow or accident. The only thing we can do is to love our life, enjoy the beauty of life and try our best to live every day without regret.