20 15 12, Zhang Lijun, a 26-year-old Shanghai mother who has been married for less than a year and is pregnant for five months, won the bad card of cancer.
The happy words at home haven't been erased, the new house hasn't lived long, and a new life is pregnant in my stomach. This should be a woman's happiest time, but Zhang Lijun was diagnosed with advanced pancreatic cancer.
The doctor said that there are tumors in the body and tail of the pancreas. If treated by surgery, the child may not live.
Husband, father-in-law, mother-in-law, and everyone around her advised her to give up the child. She asked the doctor, will my cancer be transmitted to my children?
The doctor said no.
She said, then I will give birth to him. If I have to induce labor, I will jump.
Making this decision means that Zhang Lijun has to go through an extremely difficult path of motherhood.
When Zhang Lijun was seven months pregnant, the doctor said that if the caesarean section was postponed for one week, the child's survival rate would be even greater. But Zhang Lijun's tumor reminds her all the time, and the probability of her life survival is shrinking bit by bit.
She said, I'm still afraid. I don't think I'm great enough to completely abandon my life. After all, I am only 26 years old. ...
But she thought, at least I have lived for 26 years, and he has not come to this world to have a look.
For this child, Zhang Lijun thought he could do more, even if he got a few more knives.
All mothers know that since they know the existence of their children, they instinctively love them strongly, even if they have never met them.
Others can't understand how a young girl with cancer got through these months.
The baby in her belly is her motivation and strength, and it is also the source of her happiness.
She said that whenever she had negative emotions, the baby would kick her twice. Originally, people were still in a daze, and suddenly there seemed to be nothing to think about. She still eats and sleeps, and the baby in her belly is very active, giving her strength from time to time. They are like two hearts.
Zhang Lijun's baby was delivered by caesarean section.
During the operation, the head nurse in the children's ward has been standing by the operating table, moving her hands and ready to rescue.
The newborn's breathing was unstable, so the doctor quickly intubated for rescue. The boy named "steamed buns" survived.
The doctor showed the baby to Zhang Lijun lying on the operating table and asked her to kiss the baby. The baby's mouth touched his mother's cheek, and Zhang Lijun murmured, "Great."
How many people are heartbroken by this gentle kiss.
Zhang Lijun said that when he kissed my face, tears would fall, and I felt very clear. This power comes from the softest place in my heart.
"Xiaolongbao" was only over two kilograms when it was born. Because the lungs are not mature, suffocation will occur at any time. At birth, he was put into an incubator and sent to the neonatal intensive care unit of the Children's Hospital.
At this point, the battle in Zhang Lijun has just begun.
On the sixth day after delivery, Zhang Lijun was transferred from maternity ward to pancreatic surgery. Gastroscope, colonoscopy, liver puncture, Zhang Lijun made a general examination. After the final pathological report came out, all the preparations were disrupted. Zhang Lijun's cancer is more serious than the previous examination results.
Zhang Lijun has been diagnosed as signet-ring cell carcinoma, which is a very rare case in the world, and surgery is meaningless.
The doctor said that what can be done now can only be palliative treatment, so that the patient's life can be extended for a while and she can stay with the baby as long as possible.
Zhang Lijun hasn't sent a circle of friends since he got sick. Before chemotherapy, she took a selfie with a paragraph: "Life is destiny takes a hand, I am destined to encounter this robbery; Luck will change. Please give me luck to spend more time with my husband and children. I want to hear my baby call me mom. I want to take my long hair shawl and my husband to travel again. Keep your hair, short hair. "
Zhang Lijun was afraid that steamed buns would have no memory of their mother when they grew up, so she decided to do something.
So, she made a decision to make all mothers cry-put on a festive red coat and record a video of 18 so that the children can watch it every birthday. In this way, she accompanied her children to adulthood.
Although very tired, Zhang Lijun still looks very happy and excited. She wants her children to feel warm and know that every birthday will be accompanied by her mother.
I don't know when I can see the steamed buns. His mother is nicknamed pregnant and strong Zhang Lijun by his patients. In the terminal stage of cancer, at the end of his life, he recorded his 18 birthday wish. Recording and recording, she lost her hair, lost sight of one eye, began to vomit when eating, and was afraid of being touched in the shower, which would hurt, and she had many tumors on her body.
One video, recording the dying life, also witnessed the great maternal love. Zhang Lijun smiled and countless people cried.
This story comes from the ninth episode of the documentary "Life on Earth" and its name is "Love". In the process of watching, I have been crying silently.
Many people say that it is cruel and irresponsible to give birth to a child without anyone to accompany it. However, man is not an equation, and not all behaviors can be measured by reason. For Zhang Lijun, fighting to keep her children alive is the most responsible thing she can do. From this point alone, she is already a very great mother.
For a mother, not being able to grow up with her children may be the most regrettable and sad thing in the world. But no matter where the mother is, beside the child, or in the sky, the mother will always love him the most, care about him the most, and protect him forever.
At the end of this episode, Zhang Lijun's husband is going to take her to travel abroad, and they will laugh for the rest of the day.
On August 3rd this year, Zhang Lijun returned to China for further treatment. Thankfully, under the control of chemotherapy, her condition has slowly developed in a good direction.
Zhang Lijun would rather give his life to his children, and the children gave Zhang Lijun the courage and strength to overcome his illness, making Zhang Lijun stronger and braver, and facing the hardships of life with a smile.
I hope this mother can be extremely lucky, draw a good card from the hand of fate, watch her children grow up day by day, accompany her lover to grow old day by day, and smile at each other from the time when she grows new hair to the time when her hair is all white.
I hope that fate and disease can also open a back door.