That is the reality. I'm laid off, and my monthly living expenses can't support this family at all. The economic base determines the superstructure. I changed from a man with a sonorous voice to a "little man" raised by my wife. It is not easy for me to find a new job. Having been a trade union cadre for many years, I can only say that I can't do it, and I have neither the ability nor the strength to prick chickens. Running around in the hot sun for several days, trying to sell myself in major companies and small businesses, I was faced with the question: "Do you know anything about computers?" "Can you speak English?" "What on earth can you do?" Faced with a series of negative answers, I doubted my life value for the first time. With deep disappointment and frustration, I came home, put on a colorful apron, prepared a long dinner in the kitchen, and endured the criticism of my wife's "salty" and "weak".
When I first married my wife, she was still an unemployed young man. At that time, I was in the spring breeze. I just graduated from night university and transferred from the workshop to the trade union as a cadre. I don't have much hope for a beautiful and gentle wife. As long as I can stay with her and love her all my life, I will be satisfied. Shortly after the marriage, my wife began to go to night school, majoring in accounting. After getting the diploma, she applied everywhere. I think, let her go, isn't there my support at home? My wife got a job in a joint venture company, and in less than two years, she was promoted to director of accounting department, which made me sit up and take notice. My wife had just been promoted to assistant manager when I was fired. At first, she gave up all the housework she could do and went out early and came back late every day.
The way my wife looks at me makes me feel a little pathetic and disdainful. In our society, women can't support their families, but they can advertise their husbands' skills. Men can't support their families. I am in a foreign country, and I am most afraid of being said to rely on my wife. If you can't make money, then you are incompetent. My own outlook on life and values for many years were shattered in the face of cruel layoffs, and I lost the focus of my life. At the same time, we have to face a successful wife. My wife dresses up beautifully and dresses appropriately every day, and goes out like a strong woman. I can't help but wonder how much of my wife belongs to me. Women have always been used to looking up to men. My smallness makes my wife unable to face up to my existence. I feel ashamed that so many men are younger, richer, more handsome and more handsome than me. I often lose my temper out of control. My home has become a battlefield for trivial matters. Fight your wife's silence, you don't have to say anything to a weak person.
I was bored that day. I was alone in the street when I suddenly saw my wife get out of a car. She helped a handsome guy in a suit and tie, and they were very close. My heart suddenly knocked over the five-flavor bottle. Although I understand that this may be just a business negotiation or a banquet, I can't stand it. This unexpected scene also made me suddenly understand that my biggest fear has always been that my wife will leave me. In fact, the distance between my wife and me is getting wider and wider. I resisted the urge to ask a clear question. After all, it is not easy to build a family, but it is easy to break it up.
Chewing the pain, I tried to reflect. Thousands of years of traditional morality stipulates that men are the masters of the world and family. In front of a successful wife, I lost my balance of mind, my self-confidence, my self-esteem and self-respect. As a man, I should be patient, tolerant and learn to exercise restraint. When my wife is responsible for creating material wealth for the family, I should understand her, support her, and strive to keep life calm, natural and relaxed, and get along with my wife on an equal footing. I began to treat life with a positive attitude. Every day, I dress up my daughter and send her to school. I cooked my wife's favorite dishes carefully according to the recipe. When I can't get rid of my inner loss and distress, I force myself to bury myself in a book and stop being angry. I also bought gifts and went to see my parents-in-law from time to time, telling them that my wife was very busy and worried about them, and specially asked me to visit them. When I went to my mother-in-law's house that day, my father-in-law had a heart attack and couldn't find a car for a while. I carried my grandfather to the hospital. When his wife left work, his father-in-law had turned the corner. My mother-in-law took my wife's hand and praised me for my filial piety over and over again. My wife's eyes are full of tenderness. That night, my wife whispered in my ear that I am a real gentleman, tolerant, generous, self-respecting and self-loving.
Of course, I don't want to be my wife's "little man" either. The distance between my wife and me can only be narrowed, not expanded. I've been trying to find a job that suits me. Finally, I became a life insurance salesman. As a trade union cadre for many years, I have accumulated a lot of experience in understanding other people's psychology and persuading them. In the first month, my colleagues were deeply impressed by my work achievements.
I feel great to return to work after a year of unemployment. Each of us has our own advantages. No one in the world can look down on you as long as we don't look down on ourselves. Life is like a mountain road, with peaks and valleys, but the so-called twists and turns are always in it.