The sky shed tears, and the vegetation shared the same sadness. The whole family tried their best to fight cancer for more than 900 days and nights, but they never lost their ruthlessness. My mother-in-law left us forever.
Keeping in front of the spirit, as the night deepened, everyone fell asleep with tiredness. Looking out of the window, the autumn wind is rustling, the rain is raining, the leaves are falling, and the patches are bleak. Looking back on more than 900 anti-cancer days and nights, this bitter life struggle without smoke can't help but hurt. ...
Perhaps out of concern for family members, reluctance for family members and nostalgia for the world, the elderly are particularly optimistic and strong in the process of fighting the disease. No matter what chemotherapy or puncture, we can face it calmly. Even when PICC hit her heart with a tube from her arm, she never shouted pain in front of us.
Watching the old man do all kinds of chemotherapy, his hair fell out, and our hearts were broken. But she always comforted us and said, "Nothing, I'm fine. If you have something to do, don't always go to the hospital and don't affect your work and study. " Until the last cancer cells run rampant, morphine is used to relieve pain every day. She also said it was ok, but we were helpless except sad. We have never been able to believe that such a strong, optimistic and kind person, why should God do this to her? !
"There is no pity in front of the bleak bed in the autumn wind, and the lonely geese live outside the window, and the sad birds are speechless." After my mother-in-law was hospitalized, my father-in-law stayed with me and never left. Looking at my father-in-law's busy figure every day, let us deeply realize that husband and wife are born and die together, real partners and dependence, mutual support, accompanied by the old bird!
But life is so fragile in the face of cancer. The disease is ruthless, and the Sri Lankan waved away. From now on, "whoever asks me whether the porridge is hot or not will stand with me at dusk;" Who wipes my lovesick tears, who dreams of me and the past? " !
02
Haruki Murakami has an intriguing saying. He said, "I thought people were getting old, but they weren't. People get old in an instant. That moment, maybe something, maybe someone. " , deeply impressed!
My wife's face is getting old at once. Since my mother-in-law fell ill and was hospitalized, she has never looked at recipes again. On weekdays, porridge and noodle soup are mostly delivered. The refrigerator is full of recipes for chemotherapy patients that she inquired and collected everywhere: sea cucumber, eel, loach and so on. Every week after soaking and burning, she goes to the hospital in Nanjing tirelessly.
Like fitness, she has no intention of exercising any more. Beauty cards, yoga mats and yoga clothes have all been shelved. The table tennis table at home has long been covered with dust, and I am used to joint pain, allergies and itching. Gaunt, her hair loss is increasing, crow's feet are getting heavier and heavier, and more than 900 days and nights seem to have taken her more than ten years!
Yes! Since the old man was diagnosed with cancer and hospitalized, he has been concerned and supported by many relatives, friends and society. Our family put all their manpower, material resources, energy and financial resources into this bitter battle without smoke. I always thought that medical insurance could reimburse most medical expenses, but when I was seriously ill, I found that most of the expensive specific drugs in China were not reimbursed, and the expenses and proportion at my own expense far exceeded your imagination. )
Travel, leisure, food ... have all become luxuries, and the family no longer has their own leisure time, whether in the hospital or on the way to the hospital. I have always believed that hard work will definitely pay off! I always thought that we could touch the world and give us a miracle by working so hard, but we didn't! Cancer, the devil, has destroyed many people's faith and happiness.
Some people say that children are happy because of ignorance, and adults are unhappy because they are powerless. Think about celebrities who died of cancer, such as Shi, Shi and Li Yong, and gradually become calm. Perhaps in the face of cancer, most of us are powerless. The only thing we can do is to cherish time and life. If possible, love what you love and you will never regret it.
Our efforts and persistence are awe and respect for life and priceless wealth!
03
Why is cancer so horrible? As the saying goes, if you don't recover from a long illness, go to the hospital more and learn more.
Cancer is actually a typical example of bad money driving out good money in nature. First of all, cancer cells are parasitic in our own bodies, which is a variation of normal cells and difficult to find at an early stage. Moreover, cancer cells that can make people sick are extremely powerful mutant cells, which can rob more nutrients and resources than normal cells. So sometimes the better the nutrition of patients, the faster the development of cancer cells!
Secondly, Cancer has many arms, some with knives, some with swords, some with tanks and some with airplanes. If we attack the cancer army with drugs, there will always be a few arms that we can't cope with, and there will always be cancer cells that survive this round of drugs. It won't be long before these survivors can form a huge army again through XX00 (cell division). At the same time, scattered small forces will split into different cancer armies, and they will be more mobile and can migrate everywhere (cancer is easy to spread).
Third, apart from a wide variety of cancers, the division is not routine. When a small army splits into a large army, it will also produce new arms. Back to the beginning, there are many different weapons. Usually, some of them are drug-resistant. Therefore, drug treatment is more difficult.
Finally, the individual differences of cancer patients. Individual difference means that even if cancer patients suffer from the same kind of cancer, there will still be differences, just like Zhang San and Li Si both have lung cancer, but Zhang San and Li Si's lung cancer army and arms are different. As a result of these differences, drug A is useful for Zhang San, and Zhang Sanyi has a significant effect, but although Li Si is also a lung cancer, it is useless to take the same medicine.
Anyway! The point is: cancer is like this. A billion troops are different, but we can start over after breaking up. Thousands of miles have become nowhere, wildfires have never completely consumed them, and they are tall again in the spring breeze.
Our current treatment methods include surgery, chemotherapy or radiotherapy, starvation therapy, hypothermia and hyperthermia therapy. Unfortunately, cancer cells are attached to the body, and normal cells also need a suitable environment like it to ensure the normal function of the human body. It's really helpless to kill one thousand and lose eight hundred. In addition, the survival instinct of single-celled organisms is often stronger and more patient than other normal cells that obey the rules. It's really hard to say who can last longer. So cancer patients often torture themselves, and cancer cells are still preserving themselves.
Listen to the doctor, check the medical data, including observing so many hospitalized patients, and there seems to be no reliable way to ensure that this hateful and horrible guy can be solved once and for all! Yes, there isn't!
Medical research shows that 90% of cancer mutations are caused by external factors, such as environment, diet, radiation, alcohol, viruses and cigarettes. In fact, there are more and more cancer patients, which is closely related to our increasingly serious environmental pollution and food safety.
However, in our mercenary society, which is plagued by mutual harm mode, surrounded by smog, tail gas and second-hand smoke all day long, and surrounded by gutter oil, dyes and fattening fast food, maybe we can only seek more happiness for ourselves.
I just hope there is no cancer in this world!