? One -

These years have lost a lot of things, wallets, cell phones, all kinds of hang-ups, and even how many times inadvertently in the growth of the road to lose themselves. But how can not lose 07 years since the beginning of the carry that Zippo.

Because every time to play it, there will be a girl lying on my side, told me to play some tricks to her, and every time I do not play well, but also always get her bursts of applause. If there were a lot of people, she would hold on to me, and if no one was there she would kiss me on the cheek and say, "Go for it, give you a loving encouragement.

? -II-

"I'm so scared." The voice was trembling, but still moving.

In my sophomore year, I came back over the wall from a late night snack, and when I passed the playground, I met Rui Chen, who was crouching by the goal frame and sobbing in a low voice. It was the day after Christmas, the day is so cold that no one is willing to go out, the sky can be dark, the urgent need to pee in the goal not far away from the pee, habitually take out the zippo want to light a cigarette, but then the weak light, saw squatting in the goal of the little Rui Chen, cold and shivering.

Perhaps seeing the light, she slowly raised her head, pear blossom with rain.

"Classmate, what's wrong with you?" I walked over to her, looking at her pretty little face.

"I'm so scared!" Those were the first words Rui Chen said to me.

"Hurry up and go back to your dorm and sleep. The cold is killing me." Not knowing how to comfort, I tried to persuade to end it earlier.

"Why don't you walk me back, okay?" She was not at all polite, naturally this was my intention, and hurriedly agreed.

On the way I learned that the classmate called Rui Chen, full name Wang Rui Chen, is a land-based professional with me in the same level of girls, just took the initiative to break up with the first love of the boyfriend in Shanghai, but how can not figure out how to run in the middle of the night to walk in the playground, scattered scattered and then a person cried. The reason is that she has always been a strong girl in front of her roommates, so she had to sneak around the playground to let off some steam when no one was around, but she didn't dare to cry out.

After that night, I don't know whether it was fate or God's will, but I began to often meet Rui Chen anywhere in our college without thinking. Every time I met her, she would smile and say, "Hey, take your zippo out and play with it! She would smile at me and say, "Hey, take your zippo out and play with it. Then she jogged from her roommate's side to the side of me. She would always forget what she was supposed to be doing and follow me around.

"Thanks." She said those three words to me every time we parted.

I pride myself on being naturally dashing, but I also have a fatal weakness, but whenever I'm moved, I'm so stuffy that I can't speak to the other side without stuttering and spitting out a single word.

My chat with Ruichen generally ends after a few "uh," "ah," "okay," "you're welcome! " and then grinds to a halt.

Every time this is awkward, she will laugh and say: take your zippo out to play a bit. Then lie down on the side of the chin, seriously watching my rusty performance.

-3

Three months have passed, and the relationship has been as quiet as water. After the winter vacation back to school, even in the home time, every day there is a text message chat, each other each other's attention to each other's school dynamics, occasional comments, but also just stay outside the door of the heart, wandering and then wandering.

Till back to school soon one day I had a cold and fever, drink a few packets of medicine to sleep until the evening, sleep was the sound of the housemates watching the show woke up, vaguely heard a girl in a low voice sobbing, mouth: "I'm so afraid", half-asleep, half-awake, the first realization popped up in my head is: Rui Chen and crying in the playground, I have to I have to rush over to comfort her.

When I got up in a daze, I realized that it was already dark, and looked at the time at 7:40 p.m. I thought to myself, "Ruichen won't go to the playground and cry at this time," she said, "she's such a strong and dignified person, so how can she go to the playground and cry at this time? But I still hardened my heart and went out to the playground. Standing on the podium and looking down, there was really Rui Chen's silhouette. I jogged down the steps and jumped down to the playground, and when I got closer, it was really Rui Chen. I gasped a few breaths, excited and thrilled: "You really in the playground ah, then let's walk together?"

"Did you come all the way here to find me?" Ruichen asked seemingly a little excited.

"Uh-huh." I nodded, not daring to look at her.

"Thank you." She jumped in head first and took my arm.

I took half a minute to react to Rui Chen taking my arm. Although I had a lot of experience, I couldn't hide the excitement I felt inside, it felt like the first time I was held by a girl's hand, my mind went blank and I was so nervous that I couldn't move from where I stood.

"Let's go." She whispered, taking me on her arm and walking around the track in a circle at night.

That night was very windy, and it happened to be drizzling, almost April, Xiamen's weather is still a little cold, I protect Rui Chen, Rui Chen holding me. How do not want to leave, then Rui Chen said walking tired, want to rest, and then hugged me, kissed me, I was dumbfounded for a long time how can not speak. I would like to kiss her back, but how can I not see those wind power.

Later we went out to eat a bowl of hot noodle soup, how to think of all feel sorry, but did not respond properly! The whole night was plagued by that little thought. And yet, couldn't find the right opportunity to do so for some time afterwards.

Not long after, Ruichen naturally became my girlfriend, in the Qingming Festival holiday that night, I said: Ruichen, we officially determine the relationship ah.

"Yeah." She did not think twice.

-肆-

我和蕊晨的爱情，不太像大学里的其他情侣，我们确定关系后，相反却没有之前那般如胶似漆了，她总跟我说，你要想去玩就去玩吧，而每每每得她的批准，我都很不客气的跟那帮兄弟们通宵达旦。

Rui Chen's ideal is to go to graduate school, from morning to night head in the library. I am a hangdog guy, junior began to rent a house outside the school, doing Taobao Tmall some big brand distributors, earn a little commission, and then with the brothers often bubble bar singing and drinking late at night.

But I play to play, the care and love that Rui Chen should have will not be less, I every day in my heart will silently swear to live with Rui Chen for the rest of his life, very serious and very hard to the kind of silent vow. But because it is very serious, some worries will inevitably slowly come to mind.

We're looking at graduation, and our family is always reminding us that we should go home, but I really like Xiamen in my heart, and I want to live in this place with Ruichen all the time. There are many times that I have tried to find out what Ruichen is saying, and I have learned that she will leave with me, but I can also feel that she wants to stay strong.

But we have to face the problem of giving Rui Chen a future in the big city, confident as I am, I have to admit that this is a very difficult thing. Every year to maintain the rapid growth of Xiamen housing prices, the senior mouth of the low pitiful employment treatment of our graduates of this specialty, although the family in the small county facade can be, but I know very well, mom and dad is also propped up in the give us a good day. It is unlikely that there is a way to provide me with the extra support in Xiamen.

Poor, let our love at the beginning of the heartbreaking.

One time I accompanied Ruichen to the mall, she looked at a ZARA dress, change the code tried and tried, but also let me take a lot of pictures, the results of a look at the price tag on the huge ?699, feel the pocket crumpled four hundred, the heart of the inferiority complex and difficult.

Ruichen can see my loss, holding my hand and strutting out, laughing and saying: "What's the matter, this dress is worth at most two hundred dollars, look quite good, wear ordinary can! It doesn't fit at all. When you make a lot of money later, buy me a lot of dresses that are more expensive than this one and look better than this one."

"That's a must. Must buy lots and lots." I smiled and nodded frequently.

Once accompanied Ruichen to the interview, the company in the Jia Lianli villa area, and then passed by a restaurant there, called fish sushi, looking quite advanced, want to say to go in to celebrate her interview success, after the seat looked at the price of the menu, she finally ordered a plate of salmon fillets, and a vegetable salad, and wanted to encourage her to more, but subconsciously reached out and touched the pockets of his pants, sneakily counted the number of money under the table, and froze to put a lot of money. The small amount of money froze and she swallowed back her words.

While Ruichen had always said she didn't like food very much, one plate of sashimi was too little, and when I finally watched her stick out her tongue and lick her mouth, I knew how much she liked it. This matter in my heart, like a thorn that can not be pulled out, buried for many, many years, until now as long as the touch, it has been a raw pain raw pain.

But I know in my heart that even if I had the money, she wouldn't have ordered it, and she has always been very considerate of me. I remember one time, her birthday, took her to talk about eating a big meal, that time the food expenses just came, relatively abundant, I will take the initiative to order a lot of things, after going out, was she read for a long time.

Somewhat chauvinistic me poor to poor, but very love momentum, out of the door must be by me to pay the bill, Rui Chen naturally deprived of the right to order food, lest I eat a meal in order to save face without the next meal.

But the days of no money are too frustrating, then my goal is to try to earn a lot of money. Take Ruichen casually eat casually spend, see what to buy, preferably the kind of satisfaction that can eat the very best from Xiamen to the anus.

-Wu-

Remember a prick, drunk asked Rui Chen: "I sometimes feel so poor and so frustrated, how can you look at me?"

"I'm just a little more special taste." She replied with a smile.

One time I went to Gulangyu Island with Ruichen, in the grave area there, God said change face, dark clouds, and then the wind and rain, we rushed to hide in the side of an octagonal pavilion, as if all of a sudden to the night, can not see anything around, the wind blowing around the leaves rustling, very scary, Ruichen tightly hugged me, his mouth kept chanting "I'm so afraid", I was afraid of the wind, but I did not know what to say. I'm so scared", I subconsciously took out my zippo and lit it up, and Ruichen laughed out loud when she saw the sparks.

After the rain subsided a bit, we left the place, and when we passed by Zhang Sanjian milk tea, I bought a cup of hot ginger milk tea for Ruichen, and tried to say that I drank it to relieve the cold.

"Little n, why are you so nice to me?" Rui Chen sipped the hot ginger milk tea with tears in the corner of her eyes.

"If the whole world is malicious to you, I want to be good to you" replied involuntarily.

"Remember the last time you had asked me how I could see you, I didn't answer properly then, do you want to hear it now?" She asked thoughtfully and seriously.

"Of course I want to." I nodded.

"Every time it's dark, you can always pull out your zippo and light up a bright spot; when you're not by my side, I can always wait for you to come to me; every time I go out with you and I feel thirsty, you feel like you're holding a bottle of water in your hand that you can pass over at any time like a magic trick; as long as I'm feeling cold, I can drink a cup of hot ginger milk tea every time. The spark of you lighting up the zippo is really warm, I just fell in love with such warmth, the warmth you gave belongs to me." She cried and laughed after she finished.

"You're my girlfriend, isn't all this what I'm supposed to do?" I asked with a smile.

Ruichen didn't answer me, but looked at me for a long, long time with tears in her eyes and a smile.

"Little n, after graduation, I want to marry you right away." She blurted out.

- Lu -

April 2011, did not make up the failed subjects, I resolutely chose to find a freight forwarding salesman's job first. For convenience, it rented a small room on the island.

And although Rui Chen also interned on the island, but still rushed back to school after work to study. Since I had just arrived at the company, I was very desperate and had a lot to learn. I was caught up in the agony of how to do a good job and Ruichen was very busy as she was working while preparing for her exams. We went from being like glue to a good morning every morning, a good afternoon at noon and a good night at night.

While it doesn't feel like much, something is always changing without us realizing it.

I have always been a high-minded person, proud to think that there are countless possibilities for the future. After graduation, I finally realized that when you finally have to face it, you can only choose one.

I am willing to fight, I work during the day, I go back to the rental house at night still have to be busy with the online store, all-night work the next day as usual do not feel tired, but I am not willing to do a day on the road and various office buildings hither and thither looking for customers of the zombie. I'm not sure if I'm a good person, but I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm not a good person.

The city is bustling with cars and horses, and even though I'm eager to take root here, I don't feel like I belong here.

There was a period of time when I was very ill-tempered, negative, confused and full of negative energy. Every night, I go home and stare at the ceiling, inexplicably afraid, afraid of a lifetime to be like this, afraid of inaction and Ruichen left, do not know what I really like, do not know where their future, and then can only live like this, there is no exit to live.

One night was busy giving the online store on the activity, rushed to decorate did not receive Rui Chen's phone call.

Later, when I called back to Ruichen, it was already more than 1:00 am.

Rui Chen picked up the phone and asked, "What are you doing?"

"Nothing." I replied unconsciously.

"Oh." She froze on the other side and hung up.

Afterward, I regretted it very much, but in my heart, I was really powerless, and I was torn about whether or not to make a call back to tell Rui Chen that I was sorry. After the close of work, sitting in front of the floor window staring blankly at the road traffic, tightly held cell phone shaking a bit, is a very long text message from Rui Chen, eyes a little trance I did not open clear at first, only feel that it will not be a breakup text message or the like, the heart is very afraid, hand has been shaking, the phone almost fell to the ground.

Rui Chen said: "small n, I'm sorry, is that I have been busy working and busy exams are not considerate enough, the work must be very tired it ------"

I read down one word by one word, the heart of the nervousness little by little into touched.

"Little n, as long as you never think of abandoning me, you'll never have to worry that I'll want to leave you one day."

I stared at the last line, instantly wetting my eyes, and I don't think Rui Chen will ever know: in the darkest days of my life, she gave me much more warmth than she claims I gave her.

That night I decided to be spontaneous, and hurried downstairs to take a taxi straight to the school, worrying that she would go to bed first on the way, and kept talking to her until I stood at the bottom of her dormitory building and called her.

"I'm downstairs in your dormitory, come down for a minute, will you? So excited to see you." I said over the phone.

"I'll be right down." Rui Chen, who received the call, said after freezing for a moment.

The two of us were downstairs in our dorm, hugging each other and crying in pain.

?

Maybe it is the will of God, maybe it is the arrangement of fate in the underworld. After half a year, Ruichen did not get into the ideal school, hesitated and decided not to take the test, and another job to find a job long work down.

Because of Ruichen's excellent academic performance, a variety of necessary certificates have been examined, very smooth to find a good shipowner's job, the treatment is not bad.

Ruichen soon moved from the school to live with me on the island, and it just so happens that the place where she lives is close to where she works, a fifteen-minute walk to the company.

In this way, from a pair of ordinary college couple in this city, to a pair of unremarkable working partner in the sea of people in this city. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level.

Even though we both started working, and she was treated well, the income was really just a drop in the bucket in this high-cost city.

Poor, so that our love after graduation into another bitter stage.

Topping out at twenty square feet in a partitioned room in a building, small and damp, when it rains the water on the ground will never dry. But fortunately everything is complete. Two people can stay in one piece of life, but also feel very happy.

"I really feel quite sorry for you, not being able to let you live better than when you were studying after work." Since Ruichen moved in, we rearranged the place again, and when it was finished I hugged Ruichen and said guiltily.

"It's okay, I can fall asleep with you in my arms, even if it's hard, I'll feel happy."

Her voice was warm and my heart was warm. In my heart, I silently vowed to be a warmer man than what she expected in her heart.

Then the weekend vacation, are afraid to go out shopping, the two people go downstairs to the supermarket to buy some snacks, nestled in the room on the sofa to watch a whole day of programs. The most extravagant two days every month, is the first day of payday, take Rui Chen to the downstairs of the island coffee to eat steak. And then there is one of the days before and after Rui Chen's great aunt, to go to her shopping cart to settle a certain piece of clothing that she repeatedly browsed.

Ruichen told me every time she was pouting, "When I have menstrual cramps, I open Taobao and look at the logistics information, which is warmer than the zippo you lit."

"I'll do that every time from now on anyway, it's always been the same." I said with a big grin.

Rui Chen hugged me and patted her stomach, "See, it doesn't hurt at all anymore."

- Hi-

In fact, we will understand that the love of two people can not be smooth sailing, always more or less meet some of the wind and rain when it comes.

After half a year, I began to have a business, but also in the company successfully turned, in order to better develop customers and maintain a good customer, in addition to working hard to go out to socialize, often drunk in the middle of the night after touching the door into the room.

Busy burst I can not be as before the care of Rui Chen, and even sometimes ignore her, often she fell asleep before I came home, she went to work, I am still in the hoo-hoo sleep, unlike before as good morning, good night are said very full.

Sometimes, when I touch into the room, I see Rui Chen although the light is turned off, but did not sleep, but curled up on the sofa staring at the door in a daze, the heart is very difficult. Yet I always reassured myself that it would soon get better.

Slowly, Rui Chen and I would get angry with each other, cold war, and even quarrel like other couples. Sometimes I regretted it, but didn't know what to do. I have always been a person who is not very good at admitting mistakes, and I always feel that things are not as serious as apologizing.

And then later on, I found that apologizing was really as useless as I thought it really was.

Whenever the apology didn't work, she purposely slept at a distance from me at night to keep me from hugging her. And I always feel she has fallen asleep, gently move over the body, from the back to hold her gently in her ear murmured back and forth, "I'm sorry."

One time I just finished, Ruichen suddenly turned over and hugged me, whimpering in my arms, like the night I met her.

"Little n, I actually heard everything you said about being sorry, I understand you and don't blame you at all."

"It's my fault for not taking care of you."

I didn't know what else to do but hug her tight.

I had a sleepless night that night, and after hearing Ruichen's steady breathing, I drew myself up and walked to that small balcony of my room, and smoked in silence for the rest of the night. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on this, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on this. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to get a good look at this, but I'm sure I'm going to be able to get a good look at this, and I'm sure I'm going to be able to get a good look at this.

Waking up in the morning I said to Rui Chen: "Can you wait for me, when I save enough money, back to Hainan to open a theme inn, take the family's old hotel converted up, a variety of you once wanted to live with me to live with the theme of the first floor set up as you like, piled up books, and then have a dog, you are responsible for the reception, I am responsible for the management, and the family's happy life. The family lived happily ever after. In your spare time, travel around, record those rooms worth staying in and our sweet moments, and then complete our inn little by little."

"Get out of here, I'm in charge of management, you stay at the reception desk and be honest."

She finally smiled, as pretty as the sky reddened by the falling sun.

?

Rui Chen and I went to Gulangyu Island to play once more, in the beach side of the wandering, the heavens are not beautiful, suddenly pouring rain, clouds, and all of a sudden dark can not see the surrounding, we ducked into the neighborhood of an octagonal pavilion, I lit the zippo the moment, Rui Chen and suddenly embraced me, the small head tightly against the chest.

"Little n, there's something I've always told you, and I want to tell you again today."

"What word?"

"As long as the two of us spend time together, out of sight of the periphery, and you haven't forgotten to bring your zippo to light up the slightest bit of light."

"And then what?"

"I wouldn't have left you."

We hugged tighter in the raging storm.

Rui Chen and I held each other tightly like this, snuggling and encouraging each other along the way, stumbling for almost three years.

In the work of these four years, my salary has been rising, commission with the increase in customers to get a lot of bank card figures but did not see any growth. The fact is that the company is not the same as me, she saved a lot of money, they are very enough at the same time but also often subsidize me.

Later I should have been able to save money according to our agreement that day, back to Hainan together to open the store, but I was in the opposite direction of the road more and more deviation, and finally negative a debt, the whole day depressed.

Afterwards, when it was dark, no longer give Rui Chen lit once light, not in her thirst when she turned around to see me hand over the water, a lot of cold nights, she was walking alone in the cold wind, hands in the pockets, instead of holding the hot ginger tea I gave her.

Ruichen decided to leave me, and I didn't have the courage to do anything to keep her, letting her go was the most important thing I felt I should do at that time.

?

After separating from Rui Chen, I sneaked back to Hainan without saying goodbye to anyone.

For a long time, I still feel like she is still there.

Ruichen also did not know I went back to Hainan. We still have each other's WeChat, but I didn't send anything, we both have a tacit understanding to send some irrelevant messages.

Now, Ness's family theme inn opened up, although not most according to the plan at that time, but also similar. Except that Rui Chen wasn't present at the front desk to greet guests, and I was there occasionally to assist the receptionist who had been recruited. The lives we had wanted to have together were worlds apart.

I know Ruichen is doing well, she called me once after she knew I was back in Hainan and talked all night, and I often ran back to Xiamen to find her.

But we all know, as we all love that song, some people, once you miss it, no longer.

Every time I check the room, I will stay in Doraemon's room for a while, then Rui Chen's favorite is such a room that will never be dark, can be counted late at night, can see the vast starry sky. Do not want to sleep on the bed, to the corner of the room of the hanging basket to sleep, boredom, read a book, stay all day, all day, the work of the troubles behind.

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