"In the dream a few days ago, we were all twelve years old and still good friends. 」

This is the autumn of 2004. After the Mid-Autumn Festival, our class collectively sketched in the park near our school. There are fish ponds in koi fish, octagonal pavilions with dragons and phoenixes holding pillars, and towering old trees on the canvas, with maple in the background-maple leaves are red but not red, and the color is ambiguous.

I've always had no feeling for red. The canvas was dyed deep red. Jia Rong looked at it and shouted exaggeratedly, "Mom, is this the murder scene?" ! "

I pouted in frustration and said thank you, so I took the palette to wash it. In front of the faucet, there are several basketball boys waiting in line to wash their faces. They are all playful ages, blocking the water outlet with their hands and splashing tiny water everywhere. Everyone laughed and dodged. I stood still for a while and had an accident.

Several junior high school children looked at each other and ran clean at once. I stared at the palette and was about to recognize the plant when I heard a cold voice behind me: "Hey, palette!" " "

Palette? ! I looked at the palette with bright red paint flowing in my hand and looked back inexplicably. The person in front of me is less than half a meter away, and the gray casual clothes with fresh colors are thrown on an arc red line. I was so scared that my scalp was numb that I bowed my head and explained, "I didn't mean to." I was sprayed with water just now, and I spilled it on you. You saw it. I am a victim! "

"So you mean you won't lose it?" Boys have no intention of forbearing.

At that moment, I really wanted to throw out a hundred-dollar bill and said maliciously, I thought I couldn't afford it, so I'll keep the extra money for you to marry! Of course, this can only be a personal OS digested in the mind. I only have ten dollars on me, even if I have a hundred-dollar bill, I will throw his clothes ten times. After measuring the situation, I looked up and said, "It's not my fault! Do you know how expensive paint is? ! I haven't asked you to pay for my paint yet! "

I saw his face, and he saw mine. We looked at each other for half a minute.

He is less than 1.8 meters tall, with black long bangs and narrow eyes like a fox. The palette in my hand rolled twice on the ground and fell into the nearby pool. The green water is full of charming purple.

"I didn't see the Gregorian calendar when I went out today. How do I know you, stupid rabbit! " Liu Jinyu was a little gloating when she saw my dementia.

Lu Jinyu, in my dream the other day, we were both twelve years old and still good friends.

Our city is not too big. Take a taxi to 36 yuan from east to west. There are three parks, a big playground, two cinemas and a pedestrian street. In these six years, I have traveled to every corner of this city, but I have never met you.

I don't know why, I thought we would meet again, but I didn't expect this terrible way. My eyes are red. I bowed my head and shook his skirt, tugging hard: "smelly goldfish, you are still alive!" " "

"Liu Jinyu and I are like grasshoppers tied to a rope. It's not that hard to like him. 」

After that day, Lu Jinyu became my creditor.

I owe him 850 yuan, which is my living expenses for two months. As a freshman, this is undoubtedly a huge sum of money. Lu Jinyu asked me to pay my debts in installments and wrote down my home phone, mobile phone, dormitory phone, QQ number and email address, so that I could run away from the temple.

Today's Lu Jinyu seems to be another person compared with the twelve-year-old Lu Jinyu.

Lu Jinyu and I first met in the second grade of primary school, and we were arranged to sit at the same table. He is not tall, his grades are good, he is quiet, his eyes are like big round black grapes, and he smiles with a cute little gap. In this way, this little boy, who is very popular among both boys and girls, became the study committee member of the class.

In fact, Lu Jinyu is not as good as others see. He said I was a bad boy of a thin monkey. He will deliberately tear up my exercise book and throw it in the trash can, and then tell the teacher that XX didn't hand in his homework. Or write a note to the beautiful girl in the class, the content is probably, XX, I like you very much, but the signature is the name of other boys.

There are countless such things. At first, I just watched him do bad things. I am timid. After a long time, I was also led by Liu Jinyu. Later, I formed a super terrible habit. I haven't done anything bad for a few days, and I feel as bad as a cat scratching. We are all famous good children. It is easy to frame others, and we will not be suspected.

Liu Jinyu and I are like grasshoppers tied to a rope. It's not that hard to like him.

I can't sleep at night Jia Rong and I chatted face to face and talked about my first boyfriend in primary school. Jia Rong was stimulated to pull my hair: "Tang Xin, I can't see it. I thought you were pure as water. My sister is Ming Sao and you are a man show. "

"It hurts, Jia Rong. I tell you, I met him in the park the other day. "

"A resurgence?"

"No, he used to treat me as a good friend, and I didn't even have a resurgence. Where did it come from? "

"Have a crush on half a day, see you that promise, privately full of something, put aside business, you will become dehydrated day lily! Go to him tomorrow and try to bring him down within a week. At that time, mules and horses will be pulled out for a walk! "

I dare not tell Jia Rong that Lu Jinyu is neither a mule nor a horse. He is a combination of angel and devil. He can turn against me for a dress. He is no longer the Liu Jinyu who defends me everywhere. Because I am not 12-year-old Tang Tutu, and he is not 12-year-old Lu Xiaoyu.

"Autumn is not my favorite season. It is lonely and desolate, not suitable for a good story. 」

Lu Jinyu is not a qualified creditor. He almost forgot that there was such a person as me. As a good young man with high moral quality in the 2nd/Kloc-0th century, Tang Xin finally called his creditors after being kept for two weeks. The content is nothing more than, mom has paid for living expenses, goldfish, do you collect debts?

Goldfish was silent for a long time on the other end of the phone. I carefully thought about his expression and thought that he might just regard me as an accidental elementary school classmate who can't even remember my appearance. My heart aches badly.

Then I cried in front of him. What happened?

Fortunately, Lu Jinyu's skull is normal. He still loves money. He quickly asked me to meet at the gymnasium of the University of Political Science and Law. I haven't seen a dress for a long time. After all, I am an art student, and I hang up everywhere. At this time, I think Jia Rong is so prescient that she dresses like a beggar every time she sketches.

Lu Jinyu stood at the gate of the stadium. He wore a dark red casual sweater, which made his skin look like milky white. Seeing me, I laughed so hard that I stretched out a hand and said, "Bring it." Shit, it's too direct! I silently handed two old men, and saw him put one in his pocket, said "next month on time", and then ran away smartly.

I am stupefied, he has become a little red dot in the stadium.

This guy is not a good guy at all. At least buy me a cup of milk tea or a reunion dinner. Well, I have money on me to pay the bill. I swallowed sadly and took out my mobile phone and thought for a long time. I don't think it's my style to do things without a head or tail. So I sent a message with only five words on it: goodbye, Lu Jinyu. After I sent it, I cruelly put that damn number on the blacklist.

Autumn is not my favorite season, lonely and desolate, not suitable for beautiful stories.

My face is reflected on the bus glass. Red nose and red eyes remind me of a rabbit that Lu Jinyu gave me. It's small and white, very cute. I came home with a cage and was scolded half to death by my mother. I squatted in front of my house with a cage and cried that the whole building was cursed.

The next day, Lu Jinyu gave me a flattering smile early in the morning, which made me feel creepy. He stared at my eyes for a long time and suddenly hugged my neck. "MUA" My eyes were hard, and he added, "Like a rabbit, it's so cute."

"The tall chimney hangs in the gray-blue sky, and the white smoke spit out is also very sad, like being lovelorn. 」

I spent 18 years of my life to get the truth: if a woman is not loved, it is better to sell cabbage!

I asked Jia Rong to introduce me to my boyfriend. She hugged my face excitedly, patted the underdeveloped airport and vowed, "In the sister circle, men are the most indispensable!" "

So under her arrangement, I quickly had dinner with a shy boy at Ajisen Spicy Noodles. The little boy's name is Ke Yan, and he is Jia Rong's cousin. Boy, Jia Rong is so interesting that the whole family is mobilized. I was immediately moved to red eyes, and my grandson asked, "Are you an adult?"

Jia Rong proudly hugged my neck and said, "Don't worry, it's definitely a first-hand product that has just grown out!"

Even though Jia Rong listed the advantages of more than 100 sister-in-law in love with me, I still think it is a sin to hug a man with my sister. In particular, the way Yan can look at me is absolutely innocent, which sets off my lewdness. Jia Rong shouted, "Do it when you have to," and then he set us up as a speed-dating couple.

I can't refuse the enthusiasm of innocent teenagers. He held my hand when crossing the road. I saw his shy face through the flashing street lamp. Seeing this, I really want to struggle and shout, "You have to be shy, and my mother is shy. You are shy. " My eyes are burning with excitement. Ke Yan accompanied me to the school gate and said, "Do you know you are like a rabbit? It's so cute. "

After that, he used his height advantage to "MUA" my bangs. Before I could react, he whispered goodbye, turned around and jumped into a taxi shyly. With a thunder, the meat smells seven or eight miles. If it is really made by Jia Rong, you will lose ten if you leave!

I clearly realized that Yan Kebao was serious, and that "so cute" suddenly reminded me of Lu Jinyu.

Because of his father's job transfer, he transferred to a primary school in the east of the city from the fifth grade. I cried when I knew. He helped me wash my nose in front of the faucet and solemnly agreed with me: we will all be admitted to the No.1 middle school in junior high school and we will be together again.

A year later, my application form was filled with Yang Ya Middle School. The power of children is so insignificant that my parents use "for your own good, you will understand when you grow up" to explain everything, and there is nothing I can do except "be an obedient child". I clearly remember calling Liu Jinyu that day. I held back my tears and said I was sorry again and again.

And Liu Jinyu didn't say anything. Through the telephone line, I heard the sad breathing in his lungs.

Since then, I have never called Lu Jinyu again.

Liu Jinyu never called me again.

Two years later, the place where our family lived was demolished and moved to the industrial zone. Every day when I go to school, I can see tall chimneys hanging in the gray-blue sky, and white smoke is also very sad, like being lovelorn. Birds flew by in a line and refused to stay for them for a second.

"Memory is memory after all. In the real world, sadness is everywhere. Because it is not a phone number, it cannot be deleted. 」

After a continuous autumn rain, the weather really turned cold. The maple leaves in the park are already red, and the autumn of 2004 is coming to an end. I still painted the maple leaves bloody, and Ke Yan followed me like a big obedient dog, so loyal to God.

Liu Jinyu's name occasionally flashed through my mind. Suddenly I can't remember what he looked like when he was twelve or eighteen. He is like a hard candy in memory. He didn't taste it until he grew up, only to find out how talented it was when he was a child.

However, memory is memory after all. In the real world, sadness is everywhere. Because it is not a phone number, it cannot be deleted.

People at the subway entrance, wrapped in heavy shell casings, waded across the road coldly. While waiting for the bus, I took a notebook and drew the unique wrought iron street lamp I just saw. Soon, I heard the voice of Lu Jinyu answering the phone, like the wind of mint grass, blowing through my ears coolly.

I hung my neck like a quail and jumped on the oncoming subway. The carriage is crowded and stuffy. I looked down at all kinds of shoes. After a long time, a warm body stuck behind me, and a cold voice lingered in my ear: "What are you running for?" ! "

"I don't steal or rob, what do I run?"

"Do you think you don't have to pay back the money you owe if you don't answer the phone?" Lu Jinyu is a little flustered. "You give it back to me right away!"

I gritted my teeth and stared at his face. I was so angry that I really wanted to push him to lie on the track. When the car stopped, I pulled his sleeve and went out. Without saying a word, Liu Jinyu was dragged to the ATM at the exit by me, and there were * * * eight hundred dollars in the bank card. I took it out and stuffed it into his hand, then turned and ran.

I'm going crazy to like such a blackmailer with bad character and temper. Just a few steps later, I was caught like a meat steamed stuffed bun stared at by a dog. I didn't want to cry, but I was so sad that I cried: "Liu Jinyu, I don't owe you anything, and I have no money to give you-"

Lu Jinyu's hand softened gradually, slipped down his palm, shook it gently and said, "You owe me a lot. You can't just leave. "

I was trampled on a lemon in my heart, which was so sour. Liu Jinyu dragged me out of the station, a strange street and into a strange Internet cafe. We crowded into the couple's box to watch the theatrical version of Naruto. When Hatake Kakashi appeared, I trembled with excitement. Liu Jinyu silently closed her eyes and turned a blind eye to my madness.

"I'm sorry." Lu Jinyu suddenly said.

"Well, it doesn't matter." I was shocked. "But-why are you apologizing to me?"

"I shouldn't have left you in the gym last time." Liu Jinyu's face was full of regrets, and after a while he became insolent again. "But it's all your fault! It's all your fault! "

"If you are still angry because I didn't go to No.1 Middle School in junior high school, I apologize."

"Are you sick? Who will keep that child's oath? " Lu Jinyu squinted like a fool and laughed her eyes out. "Rabbit, you are such a fool. I just said it casually, but you took it seriously-in fact, I never went to No.1 Middle School. "

For a long time, I blamed myself for not keeping the agreement. I want to hear his voice, but I'm afraid of being left out. A person keeps a diary anxiously, and he is so sad that he wants to cry at the thought of hating himself. The first time I received a love letter, I took it out on an innocent boy just because he was not Lu Jinyu.

I thought I was twelve-year-old Lu Jinyu's best friend. But he easily gave me the worst prank, which got me into his plot. Six years later, he suddenly jumped out and laughed at my self-righteous stupidity. Seeing the way his tears splashed, I couldn't even cry, just looked at him quietly.

"Are you? Anyway, I didn't abide by it, so neither of us owes anyone. "

"You owe ..."

The screen of the monitor suddenly dimmed, and Liu Jinyu squatted on the sofa, and his black hair disappeared like the night. I suddenly feel that he is lonely. A child who likes pranks is more or less lonely. I raised my voice and smiled twice: "I'm going to pick up the baby from school." He is in senior three. It's not easy to meet him, stinky goldfish. I have to go-"

Liu Jinyu didn't speak, so I rushed out mindlessly and froze on the subway for a long time. My heart is about to burst, and it hurts like hell.

Smelly goldfish, how many times do you have to let me despair before I will?

"No one is like you, half an angel, half a devil, half deep water and half hot water. 」

Actually, it's not that difficult to like Yan. I have no other advantages, but I promiscuous.

I'm going to send a photo as Ke Yan's birthday present-I can't help it. I gave all my money to Liu Jinyu, and he accepted it shamelessly. So I chewed instant noodles with Jia Rong for a week, and the whole person smelled like Master Kong beef noodles. I had the cheek to say to Ke Yan, "I will be a great painter in the future. This painting will last you several years!" "

This picture shows a boy lying on his desk, and the girls leaned in and kissed his sleeping face. I scribbled a few big characters: a picture of a rabbit stealing a kiss.

Jia Rong slapped him and cursed: "It's a pity that you have studied painting for so many years and don't even look like a person!"

Ke Yan smiled and said, "I feel very good, just like me."

Jia Rong glared: "It is your daughter-in-law who farts like Chanel No.5."

The KTV box was in a mess. When the birthday boy was thrown a cake by a frenzied companion, I was spineless and ran out for fresh air. I didn't expect to be popular for eighteen years, but I met Liu Jinyu. I instinctively wanted to sneak back into the box with my head down, but he grabbed my neck. I was a little angry and looked up and shouted, "What are you doing? I don't owe you anything! " "

"You owe ..." He said.

"I owe you!" I don't know where I got my strength, so I shook my right hand gently. "Pa", I froze, Liu Jinyu looked at me doubtfully. There were crimson marks on his jade cheeks, and I thought I heard a "click". My heart cracked again and tears fell uncontrollably.

Liu Jinyu pulled me into the corner. I thought he would answer blows with blows. He took my face and kissed it hard.

I was so scared that I forgot to cry. I gave him a hard push and my voice trembled: "What are you doing?"

Like someone who has been kissed, he leaned impatiently against the wall and said coldly, "I don't know!" " "

"You smelly rascal!"

"You scold a sentence to try again? ! "His bold eyes, I didn't close my eyes, thinking that I was going to be beaten, but he hugged me on the wall. "Stupid rabbit, I'll kiss you if you scold me again!" "I don't know if this is another practical trick of pot-bellied black Lu Jinyu. I held him and hid in the corner of this city, as if I had realized the happiness of others in advance.

No one like you has beautiful black hair and long eyelashes that fascinate me, like dyeing the night.

There is no one like you, half angel, half devil, half deep water and half hot water.

No one is like you, the worst liar I have ever seen, and a smelly rascal, but a hug will make me cry.

You're right. I owe you. I must have owed you in my last life.

I didn't hide when Jia Rong hit me. She screamed at the top of her lungs like a wounded little leopard: "Do you know that Yan Keduo likes you? He has liked you since your sophomore year. How can you play with his feelings like this? Why don't you die! "

Jia Rong jumped up again with the bottle. I didn't hide. I want to know, is the bottle hard or the head hard?

"Smelly goldfish, how many times do you want me to despair, you are willing! 」

I know Jia Rong is a fierce woman. She is Xiao Li's. As soon as she made a move, I was spattered with blood on the spot and had a slight concussion. My parents, who haven't seen me for a long time, cried like a funeral in their arms and went to school to report Jia Rong. I said practical things, I seduced her underage cousin and was beaten, which made them old-fashioned and wanted to make up another bottle.

What makes me sad is that Lu Jinyu didn't call me again, and I seem to have been played a prank again.

Sisters in the dormitory came one after another, and apples at fifty cents a catty piled up like hills. Ke Yan always sits in a chair and peels apples. When he skins it, I eat it. He is not afraid to support me to death. It's a shame to feed yourself to death. Finally, one day, Ke Yan said to me, "In fact, the boy in the picture you gave me is Lu Jinyu, right?"

I'm a little sad. I actually wanted to draw Ke Yan, only to find that it was not Ke Yan: "I'm sorry, you'd better lose it."

Ke Yan's smile was a little sad: "Actually, there's one thing I didn't tell you. I took a strange job when I was a freshman. A sophomore paid someone to follow another high school girl. That girl is a member of the art club. She can get paid from where she went to sketch and what she did. I took the money from my senior, but I gradually fell in love with this girl. You know, this girl is you. "

"But why? How much does he burn? " I think it's impossible. What did the prankster do?

"Senior once fell from the third floor window and broke his leg. He can only walk slowly, but he can't run or jump, so he can't stand up when the seasons change. It seems that because junior high school and his parents were in conflict, they locked him up, and he wanted to climb down the sewer, so-"

So Lu Jinyu didn't go to No.1 Middle School, but went to the nearest school.

So Lu Jinyu never calls me because he has no ability to strive for happiness.

Therefore, Liu Jinyu and I maintained a relationship that made me gnash my teeth, afraid to approach and unwilling to leave.

I don't owe you!

"You owe ..."

Smelly goldfish, how many times do you want me to despair before you will!

"In this dream, both the goldfish and the rabbit are twelve years old. They are a sweet and loving couple. 」

Goldfish, I had a dream last night.

I dreamed that it snowed heavily that winter and there was no one in the street at night. Your back looks very gentle. I don't know why, I know it's a dream, so I'm afraid of being woken up and a little worried. I was so anxious that I cried.

Smelly goldfish, this is the autumn of 2009, the fifteenth year of our acquaintance. After the earthquake and the plague, we shouted at each other, "Why don't you die?" We are still two people who can't die. Why can't we be together?

I don't know, maybe it's because I owe you.

So, I opened my eyes with the feeling of atonement. I tried to breathe hard as usual without spending money. The man lying next to me is not you.

I don't know what to wear to your wedding, and I've seriously thought about whether to tie explosives and die with you. At the wedding, you were as handsome as a jade tree, the bride was gentle and virtuous, and you gave birth to a pair of wild mandarin ducks. I want to step on them.

The MC said that you gave me a look when the groom kissed the bride.

Ke Yan didn't kiss me on the mouth as usual, and I suddenly remembered the ending of that dream last night.

I cried my eyes out, and you suddenly turned around and showed a sly smile, and your big eyes like black grapes were full of conspiracy. You hold my face, "MUA" my lips said vigorously. It's so cute, like a rabbit.

It turns out that in this dream, the goldfish and the rabbit are both twelve years old. They are a sweet and loving couple.

This dream is too hypocritical.

After dawn, I found it was raining outside the window.