Rewind back to 1982, the year when the 8-episode TV series "Legend of Shrimp Balls" hit the airwaves of Guangdong TV station, the second TV series produced in the mainland, which was a hit in the country once it was released in that era of lack of spiritual life. Along with the TV series, there was also the theme song "The Song of the Wanderer" sung by Cheng Fangyuan, which, like the TV series, became a popular nationwide and timeless classic, and as the singer, Cheng Fangyuan also became popular and became a female singer in the limelight. That year, Cheng Fangyuan was only 22 years old.

This talented, maverick young woman of literature and art became the idol of countless people, and her dashing and beautiful silhouette made fans obsessed with her. Afterwards, Cheng Fangyuan, with her talent, became one of the most influential singers in the eighties and nineties, however, her career is red-hot Cheng Fangyuan, but her love life is not smooth. She has had two marriages, which ended in divorce, and now at the age of 60, she is still a single person, no marriage, no children, no children, behind the free, is the pain that outsiders can not understand.

CHENG FANG YUAN

CHENG FANG YUAN was destined to take up the path of music, after all, talent is a scarce commodity and not everyone has it. The family came to Beijing from Taiyuan because of his parents' work. Both of his parents worked at the Beijing Film Studio, and his father, Cheng Dexin, had done artwork for dozens of plays and TV dramas, including "Soldiers at the City", "Sunrise", and "Yang Naiwu and the Cabbage".

After coming to Beijing, the family lived in the family compound of the North Film Studio. In those days, there was a lot of talent at the North Studio, and the air was filled with the flavor of literature and art. Growing up in such an environment, Cheng Fangyuan became a young man of literature and art.

In order to cultivate their daughter's sense of literature, her parents often deliberately taught her some poetry recitation, singing and so on, so that her parents were ecstatic that, although Chengguangyuan was young, but she learned things very quickly, and she could hum a song after learning it a few times, and she could hardly get out of tune.

However, Cheng Fangyuan's first dream was to be a reporter, and she thought it was cool to go around with a backpack, a notebook and a camera. But for various reasons, Cheng Fangyuan ended up embarking on the road of music.

The Road to Music

Cheng Fangyuan learned erhu at a young age, and was admitted to the Central Conservatory of Music, where she majored in erhu in the Department of Folk Music. When Cheng Fangyuan went to college, Hong Kong and Taiwan songs were popular on the mainland, especially Teresa Teng's songs, which made countless people go wild, and Cheng Fangyuan was also a fan of Teresa Teng.

Then, Teresa Teng has a new song release, Cheng Fangyuan is always the first to know the people around her, she not only listen to learn to sing, and sang with style, in the school slowly had a reputation. After graduation, Cheng Fangyuan was assigned to the Central Orchestra as an erhu player, and in her spare time she also taught herself English and voice.

Cheng Fangyuan is a standard literary goddess, she likes simple and casual things, dress is also so, always jeans, white shirt, carrying a guitar, very sunny, but also through a dashing force. 1982, a song "Song of the Wanderer" let Cheng Fangyuan completely into the public eye, became popular in the country female singer, she also opened her own singing road.

After that, she released classic songs such as "Childhood", "Always With You" and "The Sea, My Hometown", which established her position in the singing world. After she became famous, Cheng Fangyuan did not dress up like other actresses with heavy make-up, exaggerated and fashionable, she has always retained the innocence of her heart, always in simple shades.

The literary circle has always had a lot of entertainment, but Chen Fangyuan is never willing to waste time on these mundane world, her life has been the continuation of the "literary style", after work, she likes to drink coffee, read books, listen to musicals, any outside the hustle and bustle of the noisy, she has not changed the original heart.

Literary girls have an air of being out of the ordinary, as if they are in a world of their own, destined to be out of place in the world of trivialities. From childhood to adulthood, Cheng Fangyuan has been using her own unremitting efforts and unique lifestyle to interpret her own "artistic life", but art and life are sometimes contradictory to each other.

Art is a sparkling firework, but life needs firewood, rice, oil and salt, if these two can not be reasonably distributed, doomed to life will be out of balance, Cheng Fangyuan so, her whole life in the pursuit of "arts and culture", so the marriage is broken into a ground.

Emotional life

Cheng Fangyuan's first lover, is her teacher, the same interests, hobbies let them become lovers, and into the marriage hall. But when the initial passion faded away, everything has become completely different, love and marriage is originally two different things, love can only wind and snow, but marriage can not be separated from the fireworks.

One of them is a literary goddess who loves the sky and freedom, and the other one is a university teacher who is also a standard literary young man, so it's hard for such two people to run a good family. With the escalating conflicts, their marriage lit a red light, and a year later their chose to break up peacefully.

After the divorce, Cheng Fangyuan put all her energy into her career, perhaps to get out of the hurt, or perhaps to realize the self-pursuit, she worked day and night, and her career climbed to the peak again. And from the siege out of Cheng Fangyuan, but also opened a period of free and easy life, she traveled around, photography, but also to the United States to further study.

Although she was alone, because she was young and because she had capital, she ran her days into the ground. After returning from the US, she met a new love interest, the popularly known Wang Gang. At that time, Wang Gang, who served as the host of "Zhengda Zongyi" and also appeared in "Prime Minister Liu Luoban," was also a talented man of substance.

When they first met, they had the feeling that they hated each other, so they often went out to drink coffee and listen to music together, and the latter walked on the crowded streets and talked about life. With the deepening of the relationship, they secretly fell in love, and eventually became lovers. It is worth mentioning that not only Cheng Fangyuan had a marriage experience, Wang Gang also had a failed marriage, similar pursuit, the same life experience, so they have a more heart to heart feeling.

Marriage to divorce

In 1996, one year after their love, they married in low profile, becoming the envy of everyone in the circle of the "talent and beauty" combination, but let a person regret that such a perfect combination, and ultimately still go their separate ways. After marriage, Cheng Fangyuan still has not changed much, she still lives a very literary, as for the trivial matters of life she never dues mind. Cheng Fangyuan does not like to cook, she likes a small fresh life, a piece of dessert, a cup of coffee, a guitar, you can send away for an afternoon.

As for those in the family, she has never bothered to worry about it. It can also be said that Cheng Fangyuan, who has had a lot of experience, is not mature at heart, and she still thinks like a little girl, without the slightest idea or concept of a "wife". But Wang Gang's thinking is very traditional, in love with you and I can be, but married he wants to be a normal couple life, especially Wang Gang wants a child.

But Cheng Fang Yuan refused, she did not think at all to meet and raise a little life, slowly began to conflict between the two people. Perhaps because of his depressed mood, Wang Gang began to fall in love with drinking, often with three or five friends to drink to the darkness, every time is Cheng Fangyuan drive to pick him up home.

If they are willing to change for each other, perhaps the marriage is not towards the end, when the two are too thoughtful, no one is willing to compromise, so the friction is getting deeper and deeper. What really led to the breakup of their marriage was a violent argument. That time, Wang Gang drunk, Cheng Fangyuan drive to pick him up, who knows halfway Wang Gang suddenly pull open the door to jump out, if not Cheng Fangyuan brake in time, the consequences are unimaginable.

After the two people had a big fight, after the fight also calm communication, but the feelings have been broken, the marriage has reached the point of no return, divorce is undoubtedly the best ending. In this way, in 2001, Cheng Fangyuan and Wang Gang divorce procedures, the marriage before and after the maintenance of five years, and finally into a piece of debris.

Do you regret it now

Cheng Fangyuan, who has once again regained her freedom, still lives a very free life. She still travels, takes photos, and creates when she is inspired, and her days are simple and cozy. Although Cheng Fangyuan feels that her life is in line with her inner pursuit of poetry and picturesque, her marriage has become a problem for her parents.

The parents went around arranging blind dates for her, but in the end, they all ended in vain. Perhaps Cheng Fangyuan is just a bird that likes to be free, and she can't go back to her cage and live quietly.

In 2009, Cheng Fangyuan's mother died of illness, the old man before she passed away, still most concerned about her daughter's marriage, she said to her husband: "After I'm gone, we must let the round find a home as soon as possible, so that I will be relieved."

But back to reality, Cheng Fangyuan is still alone, she lives with her old father, now his father is nearly ninety years old, his body is not as good as a year, the burden of caring for his father fell on Cheng Fangyuan.

At this time, Cheng Fangyuan is no longer a swallow flying all over the world, she must fulfill the responsibilities and obligations of a daughter, and in caring for her father, she realized that she was also overwhelmed by the time, and only at this moment did she understand that "it would be good if there was a child to help share the burden."

But life has been set in stone, and regrets will not help. The father often reads: "I have you in my old age, you are old, how can I do? The company said: "Dad, I'm in good health, do not need to worry about you, really can not, there is a nursing home it."

But she can deceive her father, but can not deceive themselves, with age, she felt more and more lonely, began to envy those days of the world, envy of other people's sons and daughters to enjoy the knees, sadness will also be secretly tears, let a person's heart is sad.

But, there is no turning back in life, the literary life into the square, late in life but very lonely, life is so contradictory, you want freedom, doomed to not have a happy marriage, you want to have marriage, you have to learn to adapt to the life of not enough freedom.

No matter which life to choose, since the choice to bear the consequences, not to mention regret. I hope that you and I, when we are young and enjoying our great years, we also have to be responsible for our own life, because life is a one-way street, there is no starting from scratch.