Soon, his grandfather suffered a stroke and died. John was very sad. He raised his fist to the sky and cursed God for taking away his grandfather. My father still drank a lot and was always late for court performances. John was promoted to first fiddler. Then my father was fired from the palace. In this way, at the age of fourteen, John took on the burden of raising his parents and brothers (he had two younger brothers).
John was invited to the countryside for a picnic by Dopia Paver, the band's conductor. On the ship he met a blond boy, Odo Diener, the son of a wealthy businessman. They talked very well, and John expressed his character to him. He said: "I have a pair of good hands and a good head, and I will always earn my bread." He despised money, despised all fences and "no passage." ", "Punishment will not be punished" and other notices to restrict people and protect sacred property. After this acquaintance, John's affection for Odo developed to the point of developing a perverted and selfish mentality. As long as Odo was close to other friends, he would be extremely jealous and claimed that he had lost Odo and that he would commit suicide and kill him. Otto. It wasn't until Odo entered college that their friendship gradually grew apart.
The newly widowed wife and daughter of Senator Kerich moved to the city where she was born. She and John are neighbors. The lady heard John play at the concert and invited him to a tea party at her house. She liked John's "integrity, courage, and perseverance" and his "clumsy, ugly" appearance. She hired John to give piano lessons to her fifteen-year-old daughter, Minna. John agreed. Soon, he fell in love with the little girl and made a wish to her to "be a great artist in the future". But her mother did not agree with the marriage. She told John bluntly that he was not qualified to marry her daughter based on his background, family status and property. Minna obeyed her mother's wishes and began to distance herself from John. John was very angry. He wrote to his wife: "I despise anyone who claims to be noble but does not have a noble heart. I treat him as a piece of mud."
John's father fell into a ditch due to drunkenness. Drowned. Broken love and the loss of his father gave John the following understanding: "He saw that life is a battle without rest and without luck. Anyone who wants to be worthy of the name 'human' must always move toward the invisible." Enemy resistance: the deadly power of nature, the troubling desires, the dark and dark thoughts, the thoughts that corrupt you and make you destroy yourself are the stubborn enemies of this kind." He heard his own words. God” is shouting: Go forward, go forward! Never take a break! He was only fifteen years old at this time.
John and his mother moved to live with his grandfather's friend Yu Lai. His eldest brother Lotota went to work in Uncle Danotao's shop, and his second brother Ensted went to work on the ship. Lao Yulai lives with his daughter and son-in-law. His granddaughter Rosa was a fifteen-year-old girl. She was not beautiful, but she was very capable and admired John passionately. Lao Yulai wanted to betroth his granddaughter to him. John fell in love with Sapina, a young widow who opened a small grocery store.
Sapina is a lazy, pale, sickly woman. She didn't even bother to run her own small shop and sent all her customers away. John believes that she is a human being without any restrictions. Sapina loved John too. They spent the night together at his brother's house in Sapina, in the countryside. Lao Yulai's family found out about this, and they thought John was morally corrupt and were hostile to him. John was invited to play in Cologne and Dusseldorf. On his return, Sapina fell ill with the flu and died. Rosa was the first to tell him the news.
John said to him unceremoniously: "You are all hypocrites" and you "use the terms 'art' and 'beauty' to cover up the debauchery of your people. Art for art's sake!... Hey! How solemn Faith!”
While teaching, John met a young female student, Gaulande Stefan, who was the daughter of a car dealer. She also studied piano with her cousin Grazi from Italy. Ya. They all admire their teachers. Grazia in particular looked up to John. But soon, she was taken back to Italy by her father.
The Paris music community felt that John was an artistic giant. But they tried to destroy the works he wrote to prevent him from becoming famous. They believe in a motto: "My cup is not big; ... but I ... drink from other people's cups."
John wrote the play "David", which was selected by the Socialist MP Ahi Rosen He wanted to cast his mistress as the leading role in the play. After an audition, this woman's voice was found to be vulgar. John was determined to replace her, which resulted in a falling out with Luo Sun. In anger, John withdrew his work.
At a night party, John met a new friend, Ovid Jenan. He is the son of a bankrupt banker. His sister Ando Anade was the female teacher who was fired when John gave her theater tickets when he was in Germany. Ovid was gentle by nature, and both his siblings loved music. He has been taken care of by his sister, and Andouanad uses his income as a tutor to support his younger brother's schooling and life. After being dismissed from her job in Germany, she returned to Paris and died of pneumonia not long ago. John felt very sad about this. He became closer to Ovid. Later, they moved into an apartment and supported themselves with their income as tutors. Ovid "has a shrewd mind and a weak body", while John "has strong strength and a troubled soul. One is blind and the other is a paralytic." Ovid was obsessed with religion and "sincerely wished to establish a religious peace." John thought Ovid was just an idealist. He said to Ovid, "You are addicted and have forgotten life."
The two friends are very harmonious emotionally, but their temperaments are completely different. . One is romantic, one is realistic, one is good at fantasy, and one demands action. John advocated that the French should "unite to clean up the mess" and not let a few bad guys trample people under their feet. They should not wait for Napoleon's reincarnation to change the world. And Ovid said: "It is what I hate" and "our country cannot be built for hatred." He believed in France's "potential virtue, the power of light and idealism" and vigorously opposed doctrine and workers' revolution. He "dreams of building a friendly Europa and focusing all his efforts on creating a fairer and more humane world."
During this period, John met Jacqueline Longier, the daughter of an engineer. John loved her very much, but when he saw that his friend Ovid also loved her, he took the initiative to withdraw and let them unite. Soon, Ovid and Jacqueline got married and went to Italy for their honeymoon. John lost his only friend and felt lonely. But he still worked tirelessly to create music. At this time, his artistic thoughts changed and "became broader and more humane. He did not want music to become just his own monologue, his own words, nor did he want a complex and difficult structure suitable only for connoisseurs. He wants music to be a bridge of communication with human beings. Only art that is closely connected with others is living art." John once wrote to the writer Tolstoy, asking him to send him his "" collection, but Didn't get a reply. Just as Debussy and Phileus sent him their masterpieces.
Ovid returned from his travels, became a middle school teacher, and still moved in with John. The new wife is dissatisfied with Ovid's calmness; she likes John's enthusiasm. She wanted to catch them both. John had to move away in order to be loyal to his friends. The publisher Hecht took John's work and tampered with it for publication, which made John very angry. He returned all his works because he did not want his own ideas.
At a party at the University of Austria, John met Grazia, a former student. She was married. Her husband was a young attaché of the University of Austria and a child of a noble family. Grazia has become an eye-catcher in Paris.
After John met her, his passion was rekindled, but she still only offered him a quiet friendship. In the autumn, John went to Rome to find her and expressed his desire to marry her. Grazia replied that she no longer had confidence in marriage, and that their personalities were very different and there would inevitably be conflicts, so she rejected him. During his stay in Italy, John received an invitation from Paris to conduct several concerts. Grazia persuaded him to accept it. John then set out to return to Paris.
After John arrived in Paris, he wrote to Grazia, telling her that Paris had not changed, "But I, I have changed, and I dare not be strict with them anymore" and said: "Look, I'm old and can't bite anymore, my teeth are dull." After ten years of living in seclusion, John has indeed changed. But he was warmly welcomed in Paris and his performance was so successful that even his enemies praised him. He was also "interested" in Paris life and was no longer stinging.
Ovid's child George has grown up. He loves music. One day, he came to Uncle John and asked to accept him as a student. John thought of his friendship with his father and naturally agreed wholeheartedly. Soon after, Grazia also came to Paris from Italy with her two children. Her eleven-year-old daughter named Aurora is very much like her mother and also learns music from John. In this way, John tried his best to cultivate the pair of teenagers and deliberately promoted their union. Soon Grazia died, and John was devastated.
In his later years, John continued to create, but the nature of his works was very different. If John's early works were like thunderstorms, his later works became tranquil, like "white clouds in summer and snow-covered mountain peaks."
George and Aurora's wedding was in Rome. John attended their wedding in person. But two days before their wedding, John came down with pneumonia, and when he returned from church, he collapsed. In order not to hinder the newlyweds' honeymoon trip, he did not tell them about his illness. During his illness, John reflected on his life. He believes that "my goal has been achieved" and "I worked hard in my youth... and struggled tenaciously in order to fight for my right to live with others, in order to save his personality from the demons of the race. Even after victory, he still He had to be vigilant all night to guard his trophies... The joys and tests of friendship brought the lonely heart into communication with all mankind. Then came the success of art, the peak of life... Unexpectedly, there were twists and turns... Encountered mourning, lust, shame - - God’s vanguard, he fell…meeting God face to face…striving to accomplish the Lord’s will within the limits He has appointed for us.” Finally, he died.
The Saint Christophe carries a child across the river. This child is heavy, he is "the day to come."